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So I think God is fucking with me. I mean I know it's kind of blasphemy to say that, but still. Come on now. It's kind of outrageous that three guys whom I know want some of this aren't giving it up. Is it me? It very well could be. Let's start with this past weekend. So I knew I was totally going to have sex and confess my love for one, but that didn't happen at all. Neither of them. Right. I didn't have sex nor confess my love, which was the main reason I went back in the first place. Not that my trip was in vain. Not at all. I had a wonderful time. The added bonus didn't come. Which was presented more than once. Why is it me which makes all of the moves? That's not even my "nature" technically, I'm supposed to be the one who is sought after. Not happening. Only when I post to craigslist. Then everyone and their mom wants some of this. Everywhere else in my life? Please. I would be grateful to get a smile out of a cute guy.

1. Tonight we had game night. Scrabble. I won. Obviously. Rohan wasn't here. I was doing my best to make the moves surreptitiously to a certain someone whom I've crushed on for a while, but never tends to give me an inkling of interest back. I even wore a sweatshirt with his name on it. He thinks I did it on accident. Haha. Well, it is my favorite sweatshirt, but still.
2. Yesterday I gave my number to boy whom works across the street. He said thank you. He will never call me back, and now I can only shop there when he's not there for fear of embarrassment. Fuck that. I will shop there whenever I want. His loss.
3. No one. I wish I had something to get me off of thinking about having sexual intercourse all of the time. Crazy enough, I don't want that. "they" say when you aren't looking, that's when things come along. Bullshit. when I'm not looking, the fucking crazy ass bitches come searching for me. It's like they know I'm not looking, so they purposely come out with the intent they are going to bag me. Almost works every time. I'm attainable when I don't want to be, and when I want to be either I'm putting the moves on too strong, or not strong enough, or I'm not that hot guy whom they believe is going to give them really great sex. I may not be the hottest guy in the world, nor do I give the greatest sex I'm sure, but dammit I'm fun, spontaneous, and fucking cool.

It's been more than a month. Madison is surely a crazy place. How funny is the life I lead.