Hangover.

Oh Damnit all to hell.

I have a throbbing sensation in the frontal lobe of my brain which prevents me from thinking straight. My stomach also seems to be going through some unsettling times; its shiftyness troubles me. For a moment, all is well. Suddenly, another part of my brain decides to work with my stomach, to cause that weird salivation in the rear of my mouth while the tip of my tongue remains parched. Swallowing the saliva only makes my stomach more upset and spitting mimicks the action I am trying to prevent in the first place.

Rinse, Repeat.

I then think what put me in this position in the first place. One of the worst feelings in the world, and yet I made the conscious decision to drink. Drinking is not the problem but dollar drinks are. All in all, the root cause is me.

Last night, I was in the midst of my couch reveling in my depression (not that I enjoy being depressed all of the time, but sometimes, it's nice). when I received a text message from a certain someone to come out for dollar drinks. Me, being the good friend I am and knowing if I stayed home I would have regretted my decision, I got dressed, drank 2 beers, and headed out for some dollar drink madness.

Madnesss it was. Many dollars later, and meeting up with some Starbuckians, we went to yet another club where The alcohol had finally begun to take its toll and led to some decisions I may not have made had I not gone out.

No regrets, just happenstance. It happened, we live, we get over it.

And it's happend again

I just can't keep up. Someday I will be able to.

Too many things. I'm dating someone. I don't know how long this one will last but I'm actually genuinely interested in him. I like him alot. We'll see. Not getting hopes up.

Going out of town in a week.

Shit man.

I love life right now.

Starbucks.

1. Because we're used to whipped cream.
2. We make everything extra hot.
3. We know how to keep you up in the morning.
4. We won't fall asleep afterwards.
5. We thank and worship you over and over, even if we know you don't deserve it!
6. No body grinds like we do.
7. The thing's we make are soooo delicious.
8. You ALWAYS find Mocha, Whip cream, caramel or some other deleciousness on some part of our body.
9. Give you enough creame so you won't complain.
10. Because we always gladly do it agian if you arnt satisfied and thank you with a smile.
11. Because we stay fresh for an hour and only need 4 minutes to re-brew.
12. We will always give you stuff that you LOVE to slurp and swallow.
13. We Give "Legendary" Service.
14. We wipe our steam wands with a towl when we finish steaming your pitcher.
15. Because our aprons aren't just useful in the store, but also in the bedroom; easy to take off, clean up small spills/stains, provide easy access to...everything!

I don't know why this whole three months until the next post thing has been going on- but it shall stop.

So yes. I need to figure out how to word my words. How to say exactly what I'm thinking. That's a thought in the back of my head.

I am sitting drinking a glass of Domaine du Vieux Chene (the winery) cotes du rhone (the type of wine) 2003 (the year). It's earthy.

Wanna know something interesting? Coffee and wine have the same descriptors.

I've moved up a box in the "annual salary" section of questionnaires.

Everyone add me to myspace. You know my name. I have to get friends now. My teens are getting on me.

futurefilmmakersfestival.com.

oh yes. email for the new business email.

A Night of Firsts

Today was a day filled with many new firsts for me.

I took out too much money from the bank- and spent the majority of it. That's not a first. :)

I decided to stay in this apartment with Helena for another year. This marks the first time I will have signed onto another year lease with another person. This is a HUGE decesion because I REALLY want to live by myself. Living with Helena for another year will allow me to save more money for the year to come.

I went to my first full fledged wine tasting at kafka. http://www.kafkawine.com. It was awesome. I was by myself- which I tend to be more often. I had a wonderful time. The theme of tonight's tasting was French wine. I learned SO much in 2 hours. I can't wait for the next one.

I bought more than one bottle of wine. That's a first.

I went to an opening of a new sex shop tonight. www.mytulip.com. I have 10% off if you order online. Need discount? I'm here.

I bought my first sex toy. www.aneros.com. I haven't played with it yet. I don't think I'm ready. I want to clean my room first and I want time.

I bought my first lube. It's really gay. The name is boy butter. Keith (at Tulip) said it's his favorite and he sounds like he knows what he's talking about if you know what I mean.

I became a regular at my sushi resturant. First time I'm a regualr at a resturant.

I bought a room at Steamworks. That's a first. bathhouse rooms. There should be a law against them. Both bath houses and rooms at bath houses. I didn't get any ass. I threw away my membership. Fuck that shit.

thus the night of firsts ends. This post is also the first of '06.

Many more firsts to come.

So this is

Christmas.

It was awesome. I love spending it with my family. I had a wonderful time. that's it.

I called him. (name of the red crab from little mermaid) I shouldn't have but I couldn't help it. I've had a bit to drink so I got some courage.

Whatever. Of course he didn't answer and I played the message off really well.

Time to take a shower and go to bed.

Dermalogicia rocks.

Irrespectable

I had someone over last night. Tim. Fairly cute, 23, short.

Used the bathroom, we fooled around.

He asked to use my restroom.

He spent a while in there, I was about to get worried.

He came back, proceeded to have not good sex with me.

I went to the bathroom.

TURNS OUT HE THREW UP IN MY SINK!

It would have been okay, if he would have bothered to clean it up!

That's fucking gross!

I Should have stayed home with the dog.