_________ New Year

You can fill in the blank with whatever you will.

Here's how my New Year's eve is shaping up:

Early this morning, after drinking 8 cups of coffee with Helena, we had an excellent idea to watch the sunrise. It was one of the most beautiful things in the world; 'twas a wonderful morning, and the weather is phenomenal. I slept in, because this is the first day I've had off since Christmas, and I've been working 10-12 hour days every day. My roomates want to have a little new year's pre party, so I cleaned a little, took a shower, and made a list of all the things I wanted to do for the day:

get a haircut
buy an outfit
buy party favors (to surprise my roomies)
get pictures developed (from last night)
buy a camera
get new screenwriting software
pay next month's bills (I got a really big paycheck, from all the hours I've been working)

but first, before I could do any of these things, I had to go to the bank, to get cashola.

My financial institution, by the name of New City Bank, is a small ass bank here in the big city with only one branch. I crossed the street, and the building was dimly lit, looking very mysterious on this beautiful day. I arrived at the front door, only to learn it was the only bank to close early. In huge letters across the frosted glass door read the following statement:

"We will be closing today at 1:00PM. Sorry for any inconvenience. Happy New Year from New City Bank"

FUCK.

I just got a new debit card in the mail, and because it's a small bank, with no 800 number, I can't activate it over the phone. it can ONLY be activated by going into the bank, and they were closed.

I GOT PAID TODAY, AND IT'S NEW YEARS!

I have the worst luck in the world

It's okay. I fixed that problem today. I opened another account at another bank, with a check, but I can't get cash out of that account until Monday.

Happy F'in New Year.

It's 5 o'clock somewhere

The New Year will be here soon, and I have no plans.

Looks like New Year's Rockin' Eve with Dick Clark is going to be calling my name.

Yo

Marry Christmas, Happy Kwanza.

Mine was awesome. I got Scene It. Best game ever.

Love it.

I met Eric Idle today.

The Verdict.

He's straight.

Officially. It sucks, but I totally had it coming. Come on now. Duh. He's a boy whom I thought was hot. Of course he's straight. Haha. I'm so stupid for even crushing on him. I totally cried myself to sleep last night. Okay, not really, but still. I have to really build a bridge now. It's good though. Pipe dreaming never gets you anywhere. Well not me at least.

Oh bother.

I have had a really good day though. I randomly found a pass on the street for the CTA, and since I had no money, it got me to work. That was amazing.

I also met John Cusack. He was bought a computer for sister. Today was a really good day.

I have to clean my room tonight. If Helena comes over, it might be just swell, because then I can clean my room while she writes or something. I don't know. It's a fucking mess, and I would like it clean and spiffy for Christmas.

Okay, I have 10 more minutes left of work, and I'm on a 15 minute break.

Back to work.

I want to visit New York for spring break. Any takers?

Three Strikes?

Here's my deal:

I totally meant to ask him out yesterday, but I missed him. That sucks. So today, it was so incredibly busy that I didn't get to talk to him again. That's strike two. Then, when he was leaving today, I asked him to come over and see me for a sec, because I had a question for him. He didn't. Strike Three. Maybe I shouldn't ask him out afterall.

I have Spamalot tickets, and I need someone to go with me. January 1st. I just wanted to see if he wanted to go.

I'm confused. Should I bite the bullet and ask him tomorrow, or should I sell the tickets on eBay, or go with a friend? I have no clue.

It's 6:22. I work until 10:30

Oh golly gee.

Please share your advice.

It's Friday

and I still haven't asked James out.

I totally meant to today, but I didn't get aound to it. I'm kind of upset at myself. I'm totally going to a party tonight. I haven't been to one in forever. Fun times for all.

I'll ask James out tomorrow. We'll see what he says.

I'll keep you posted.

Worried

So today, I totally planned on asking James out on a date. I practiced in the mirror and everything, and was just waiting for the right time, you know when other people weren't around, etc.

I didn't get to.

Damnit. Tonight is the last night of his play, and I can't go, because it starts at 7, and I don't get off until 7. I could get his number somehow, but he doesn't work again until Friday. That means I'm going to stress over this all week.

This is about to be the week from hell, I already know it.

Here's what's worse. I seem to have competition. Well, I know this is just my jealous side getting to me, but to me it seems that another coworker of mine, Freddie likes him too. Damnit. He's older, so in my book, has a better chance. They can do more things. He's going to James's show tonight. Of course he gets to go on closing night. AHH!

He's totally going to ask him out.

I'm hardcore jealous.

I feel like I'm about to cry. Let's hope for the best. Let's hope James says no, because he's interested in me, and wants to date me.

That's mean though. I can totally feel it slipping through my fingers. I feel like I have to do something today.

Help.

Can't Touch This

I went to the greatest site in the world today.

www.gayhiphop.com

go there. It will make you laugh.

I'm gay, and I don't even know what the hell is up with gay hip hop. It amuses me.

so. I'm going to a party tonight. Hopefully it'll be fun.

Well, it'll be fun, because I'll be with Helena!

that's it. Time for Espanol.

boo.

Dear..

Dear Blog:

I feel really stupid writing about this, because I sound like a highschooler. There's this boy. It's always about a boy. Somtimes I wish I were asexual. It's not fair.

So the stroy unfolds. James is a guy at work. He started a couple of weeks ago, and I could have sworn that I had seen him before. Of course he's the hottest thing in the world, and I instantly had a huge major crush on him. We went to a couple of luches, and had some great conversations. When I have a crush, it's quite obvious. My coworkers could totally tell, so one of them approached him and asked. "straight" was the answer in a nutshell. I was floored, although I shouldn't have been, because I always get my hopes up too high. Usually, things die after I hear that word, and we become friends. Not in this case. I like him more. It's soo sad. Everytime he says hi to me, I get goosebumps. When he looks at me, I melt. Never has that happend to me. Ever. He's an actor. He invited me to see his play. I went. I loved it. Not becasuse it was him, but it really was a good play. We talked after. I could swear he's into me, but then there's days like today, when I felt nothing from his end. He looked extra good though. I just want to know if he's gay, so I can ask him out, but then I get to thinking

If I'm really ready for a relationship. How can I be commited to a relationship? I don't know. I mean I know I would never cheat, but I'm a hard person to get a hold of. We'll see. We'll see. I just think he's an amazing person, and I do really want to get to know him. I do.

Besides, I think we'd look awesome together.