Fun Times

I need to hurry up and go.... Ben is down my throat.. but I always have one last thing to do on the computer. that's crazy. OKay. But I just wanted to say that I had a really good time last night. Tons of fun. Let that take you wherever you want it. I just know what it was, and it was fun. I'll say no more than that. Whatever. OKay. I'm going to get a new phone!

Love,

Christopher.

My Friends are Assholes! Every Tuesday at 9!

Welcome to My Friends Are Assholes!!!! On this Episode, we have Christopher, a 19 year old hottie from the South Loop of Chicago!

(audience) Hey Christopher!!

Hey.

So Christopher. Tell us why your friends are such Assholes!...

Well. They know how horny I am, because we have all been talking about it all day. Well, they decided to sign onto MY screename, and talk to the people on my buddy list. Turns out, I've a friend on there (names will not be mentioned) who's also in need of release. I was totally about to get ready to go to a party with the two of them, and they invited him over. Then, while I was in the shower, they told him of the exciting things we are supposed to do tonight. When I got out of the shower, I was in shock of the conversation I read. He was in the shower, and will be here in about 2 minutes. Then they left for that party!!!!!! So now, I'm here, waiting for this guy who's coming over! The horrible thing is, I masturbated in the shower (something I haven't done in about two months, because of the lack of time), to prevent me getting excited at the party I was to attend tonight. Sucks. I mean if provoked, I never have trouble rising to the occasion, but come on now. I don't want to lead this guy on. I was reading Cosmo today, and I am just no in the mood to hook up. So back to my friends. They then invited ANOTHER one of my friends to come over, to hang out with me. What am I supposed to do with that? Some friends. I love them though. Wouldn't trade them for the world. Haha. I can't help but laugh, but they are still assholes. That's what friends are for. Getting you ass. Haha. Except I don't want any. They can't have any, because they are both taken, and their ass is not here. But still. I don't want any, but they have forced this burden on me. We'll see how the night plays out. I mean it's going to suck, beacause although I'm going to say no to guy coming over (the first one) I feel really bad, because he's being led on. Sad times. The other will just go play with Adam. This sucks. Just now, my friend called, and gave me this stupid ass story. I am really going to cry. I don't want to stay here. We'll end up watching movies by ourselves. On different couches. Then Ben and Scott will come back, and they'll be like what that fuck. Now everyone is here. Okay.

Stevie Wonder. A whole post for him.

I just met Stevie Wonder. Put that in your book.

:)

I made it home safely 10 minutes ago. I'm still cold

The trek begins..

So I'm leaving work now. I was couning on Marge to give me a ride home, but she didn't drive today. Sad times. I will now begin my trek home on foot. In 10 degree weather. It's only 3 miles. I'll make it. I'll update when I get in the house if I'm not frozen to death.

Poo on the Academy.

I don't even want to tell of my night last night. It was all too weird.

But I will say this, and I mean it.

I hate the Academy. They ALWAYS shaft the good movies. I am so pissed off. Yes, some really good movies were nominated, but where is Big Fish? Kill Bill? hell no. I was very surprised at In America. I was actually Happy. what about the Agonomist? That's bullshit.

I'll put out my predictions later. Lost in Translation was NOT that great. That's a crock.

And I'll tell of my night of last.

WHAT!?!

my last post didn't show up. Maybe I need to post to see if it's there. I had a good night. Bad day, good night. now I have work tomorrow.

Fun times.

I added Scott Show to my sidebar. You can see him and his picture. Those are really bad. We were trashed last night. The first is of Scott and Nicole, and the second, of Myself, and Jill.

Let's not talk about it.

Today is not going to be a great day. I can foresee it. let me even start from the true beginning of the day, midnight.

so, at midnight, I was already a little inebriated, but not too much. I started to talk online. I was talking to this random guy, scott. He said he didn't have anything to do, so I told him to come on over. I had friends over, and we would have had fun times. He came. turns out, he's got a connection to every one of my friends. Weird huh? It's like this.

-One of his best friends, is ROOMATES with Ross. Yes, we all know Ross. Read previous postings to find out about Ross. Well Ross isn't out. I had NO clue. Damn.
-he is BEST FRIENDS with Jill Madrigal. Who's Jill Madrigal? JENELLE'S LITTLE SISTER. I know Jill. Very well! Jenelle is one of my best friends here too! Weird ass. We called them when he got to my place, and they all came over.
-he knows ROHAN from school.
-he's met Scott before, but he didn't know it.

weird ass. And, he just happens to be really attractive. that sucks, because he didn't like me at all. Damn

Well, as the night carried on, we did have fun times, but it started to get REALLY late. I wanted to sleep, because I was SICK. Yes. That's right. No. They decided to go SWIMMING at 4 in the MORNING. I know. I was like "nah guys, I'll see y'all in the morning". No. they called me, to bring some towels down. I brought some, and went to sleep on the little chair. Next thing I know, I was in the pool. yes. with my clothes on, my wallet in my back pocket, and....

(drumroll please)

MY FUCKING CELL PHONE (aka my RIGHT ARM) in my pocket.

That's right folks, my phone is FUCKED. I have no life now.

(now it's 5:30 in the morning)

I went upstairs, dried off, changed, turned up the heat ass high, and started to prepare places for everyone to sleep. yes, they were all sleeping at my house. like a million people.

Well, They stayed up talking, and so I couldn't sleep. When I finally fell asleep, it was nice, but guess what time I woke up?

10:30.

Yes. 10:30 Guess what time I had to be at work?

10:00

Hell yes.

I know. I was asleep, and since I'm sick, I didn't have a clue what time it was. I jumped out of bed, tried to call work from my cell phone. Realized my life is NOT a dream, because my cell phone really does not work, and cursed. Really loud. I woke people up. I called using Ben's phone, and yes. Now I am here.

oh but wait. Let me tell you how I got here.

I got outside, and realized it's snowing harder than I have ever seen in my life. Like 2 inches every 30 minutes. It's a blizzard. I caught a cab, and my driver hit on me the whole way. the WHOLE way. I wanted to just kick his ass. I held it in though. He knew I wasn't pleased though. he was about to give me a free ride, but I wouldn't let him.

Now I'm here at work, and yes. You can guess how I'm feeling.

Like shit on the dirty side of a brick that has been aged three years on the bottom of a stagnant pond.

Well Damn.

Well Damn.
by Christopher Guest


Well Damn~The windchill is negative 15 degrees today.
Well Damn~Our store doesn't have a foyer or revolving doors, only 20 ft. doors, so the whole store is freezing.
Well Damn~You would have thought they would have thought about the damn Chicago winters when they designed this building. No. They are all from california, so they don't know.
Well Damn~Oh yeah, so remember Devon, well, his name is Kevin.
Well Damn~I know. Damn.
Well Damn~we don't talk.
Well Damn~that's understandable.
Well Damn~I don't blame me.
Well Damn~I am freezing my ass off.
Well Damn~I am having hot chocolate all night. Nothing else.
Well Damn~I still have three and a half hours until the store closes.

The end.

Today is one year in Chicago! Wow. Seems so much shorter, and longer at the same time! I've been here a whole year! It was exactly a year ago today that I met Ben! We're still friends! Even closer than before! Actually, wanna hear something really funny? He's right behind me, asleep on my couch! That's awesome. I kind of want to go out and celebrate tonight. I don't now. Maybe the boys and I will go to the Royal. Haha. Two weeks in a row? I don't know if I'll be able to handle it.

Wanna know what else is today?! The Chinese New Year! Coincidence? I think not. I have to go to work in an hour. I really don't want to go, my nose is so stuffy. My roomates are gone as of tomorrow. All three of them. The house is mine.

I can't be long, but I had to post before school. I'm sick too on top of that.

Guess what though!?

Tomorrow, January 22, is officially my one year anniversary in Chicago. Wow. It's been a year. Seems like so much longer, and so much shorter at the same time.

Woah. It's Tuesday. I slept through my classes today. That sucks. right through the alarm and everything. Wow. I can't miss another class before spring break in Chemistry and in Economics. I really like Econ. too. That sucks. It was worth it though.

So last night I had three dreams:

One was very interesting. I got really drunk at a party, and began to yell at a random guy that I didn't even know. I passed out at the party (which was at my house), and while I was asleep, he super-glued a gun to my hand, and the trigger to my pointer finger. when I woke up, I rubbed my forehead, and felt something hard, cold, and rough aginst my head. I thought at first; "wow, this is some hangover" and then tightened my hands. a shot went off, and I immediatley fell to the ground. It still didn't hit me that I had a gun in my hand. No one was in my apartment, but the people down the hall must have heard it too, because someone knocked on my door. I went to the bathroom, to pee, and that's when I noticed. I looked down to aim, and I saw one of the scariest images ever. A gun. In my own hands. I had to be at work in an hour, and I had no clue how to take it off. I decided I would call in sick. They told me I had to go into work, and I tried to explain the situtation. No one understood. I then had my next challenge in front of me: Getting to work. I had to keep my hand in my pocket the whole way, and not touch the trigger. I was going an amazing job, until a man came by, and wanted some money. I told him I didn't have a cent on me, and he kept perstering. I took my hands out of my pockets, not thinking of the beautiful treasure I had in my palm. As soon as I showed him, he had a heart attack and died.

When I got to work, I went straight to the manager's office, to explain my complicated situation. They immeadately called the police. It was scary as hell. It was like they didn't trust me. I ended up running home, and falling asleep. Then I shot myself in the shoulder, because I was asleep.

Then I woke up.

Dream #2:

The screenplay that I had been working on for the last year, finally got some action. At the office (Cinema/Chicago) an up and coming director began talking to me, and asked for a little bit of it. He loved it, and said he would love to direct it. He had money, and an indea of someone to produce it, but I would have to move to New York while editing and pre-production plans were going on. I said okay. In New York, you will never guess who I re-met. Oh yes. Nathan Gelgud. (I know, it gets cheesier by the minute). I told him of my recent coincidences, and he thought it was amazing. I brought him into the office buidling one day, to meet everyone, and they instantly gave him the job of refining my scrpit, while working on his own brainchild. We were both there making it. Our movies were released within eight months of each other, and we both got 2million dollars each for signing to make another movie together.

Dream #3.

I can't remember. It stinks. Not the dream, but the fact that I can't remember it. Something to do with Julia Roberts and Cameron Diaz. (I just watched My Best Friend's Wedding before I went to sleep last night)

I should know the lingo, I'm a master at it. Why then, in certain situations, do I not even notice it, until 5 o'clock the next evening?!

"so, uhh.. I'll call YOU tomorrow, and we'll work something out"

Please. I've said it too many times. I know what that means.





Why, then, do I check my messages every three minutes?

Please tell me. Inquiring minds want to know.

Yeah, so I must admit, I love children. I didn't want to babysit last night, but I knew I would totally enjoy it, and I did. Let me tell the whole story.

I was at Cheesecake Factory with Ben and his family, and some of his cousins. I totally hit it off with them last night, and Ben decided to have them spend the night. I was flustered at first, because I REALLY wanted to go see Monster last night. It was all good though. I went to Sarah's saw them off (they're going to Texas with Josh), and went back to entertain. I have to admit, I loved it. I haven't been around kids in a while, and I saw myself going crazy. I went out and bought them breakfast. I actually got up this morining to clean the kitchen, living room, and bathroom. Then I went to Jewel and bought all of their favorite food (we talked about food last night at dinner, so I knew what they like) bacon, eggs, and cheese. Oh yes, and LIFE cereal. Then I came back (everyone was still asleep) and I cooked. I woke them up, got 'em in the shower, and now we're about to eat. I'll make a great dad someday.

Dear World-

Devon called me back. He said to call him at work and "we'll talk" haha. That is so funny to me. You don't leave those words in a message.

I'm off of work. Whaa-hoo.

I'm supposed to go to Cheesecake Factory with Benjamin. I don't want to go, because I have no money, but I'm going anyways, because it's good food.

I just met my friend James.
He's a really cool folk singer.
look at his website (James' Website in my sidebar)


woot.

Oh yes.

That stupid ass boy did not call me back.

I am so dumb.

Okay. So I am sitting here in the offices of Cinema/Chicago, typing in my blog, and I'm high. Well, i'm not blown out, but I'm nice and comfy. You know what I just realized? I can totally have this job when I graduate. As long as I intetrn here. I mean, Kelly will have totally blown up in her Jelery business, and she won't need the extra cash, so I can have her job. Then I'll slowly move, up, get some money saved, while I'm writing my screenplay. They'll pay more than Apple by then, and I'll get benefits, and I'll still work at Apple a couple nights a week. When school's over... That's soon!

Wow. I didn't mean to go all out on a tangent like that. I just couldn't stop myself. It was actually kinda cool. Now I am going to type what I did over the last couple of days. I totally wrote it in my notebook, in preperation to type it out. Here it is:

YESTERDAY

I need to write about what though? I honestly do not know. I am here in chemisty\ry, and we are talking about significant figures. I didn't get them in high school, but now, it's like a peice of cake. I can't understand how I didn't get it. I think I will always be tired in this class for two reasons: ONE: It's at 8:00 in the morning. TWO: Chemestry and I aren't the best of friends. Oh yeah. And there are No hot guys Haha. That shouldn't matter. It doesn't. I promise. (I should be making a calendar for volunteers in preparing to call the whole database. please. Well, I could be volunteer coordinator, and have Kelly's job. I could start now. hooking this volunteer shit up, and keep staying the coordinator. Then I'll get paid. And I'll help Helen Program the films! I'll even help Sophia with the accounting!! oh shit! they will never get rid of me!!!) Anyways, speaking of guys, I think this thing w/Hudson sealed the deal about me and ghuys. Just taking in account THIS WEEK I have NO time to put into ANY sort of relationship WHATSOEVER. None. Much less the money. In my normal life, outside of parties, and random people I meet, no one in my daily interactions with people have that type of potential, and guess what?! I LOVE it. There is no way I'm ready to even have a boyfriend. Now that I even think about it, Scott and Ben are right. I won't get one until I'm around 25. Ouch. It hurts, but it's comforting at the same time. I don't have to worry about any of that shit. I think myliterature class will help me form my own opinions of what love really is to me, and guide me to see what Ivalue in someone. This does NOT pean I will go out and look because I have stopped looking. DONE. FINITO. BOO YOW. put THAT in your book. Wow. today, I feel Amazing, even though I have so much going on! I feel like I am starting somewhere, and things will begin to just align themselves. I just need a day or two to breakdown everything I want. That's what I'll do in the office today. Hell, I'll start now. We'll start with money, and what I need it for


Then I talked about money, but I won't post all that.)

Once I pay off my debt, I'll get a really good cradit card with a really good credit line. I'm hoping by the beginning of March. April 5-8. That's spring break. I want to work my ASS of that week.

Okay, now that I have all of my money written out, so it looks eaiser. I can start on my to do list:

To DO
~Laundry
~cinema/Chicago volunteer list
~get Student ID/UPASS

Mt Three Money Goals:
1. Have all debt paid off (even school) by and of year.
2. still to have $3000 in bank. BY MY BIRTHDAY.
3. Be back in Columbia in fall

My three Friend Goals:
1. Go on a BIG trip
2. Never miss a birthday.
3. be there.

(an hour later) Yeah so get this. I am now in Economics. I spent the last hour of my time wandering around the school. I am so stupid. I have to sit in the FRONT row now.

(during Econ. class) Amazing. Do you know what I just noticed? I don't watch TV. At all. Wow. That's crazy. I used to watch HOURS of TV on end. Just sit there and flip channels. I don't watch WB ot MTV, damn! No sitcoms, HBO, showtime, Six Feet Under, Queer as Folk, DAWSON'S CREEK!!!! Shit! Where does my time go? It's weird. I know almost NOTHING about celebrity life, something I used to keep tabs on like none other. I don't know about news. I should get s subscription to the TRIBUNE. Wow. The last time I watched TX was OC new Year's special, 2 weeks before Christmas. That's really weird. We have 4 TV's in my apartment, and I don't watch them.

TODAY

Ho-Kay.

So let me tell you about my wonderful night last night. I went to Scott's afternship, where he, Jenelle and I had a bottle of GOOD chardonnay. My original plan was to chill with my gays first, then go with my girls to see Megan off. But, things never go as planned. We ALL know that. This is what ended up happening. GOt some potasio. Ben came over. The plan was for everyone to go somewhere, and have a goodbye gathering (not party) for Dan Rymer. We coudn't go to Ben's because we ALL know about the situation with Ben and Dan. Besides, Dan's boyfriend was here. That's a no-no. We couldn't have it at Scott's, because Kate had class in the morning. We were thinking about what we could do. As we drank Grey Goose (Heiniken is MUCH better) and passed the bowl, we all came up with the same conclusion.

THE ROYAL.

Haha. I haven't been in six months. Of course we had to go on a night where we all looked like ass. with a capital ASS. You know what's even funnier? We were the hottest fucking eople in the damn club. We didn't even get ready, and we looked better than ever fucking guy with makeup, hair gel, nasty ass tank tops, and LOADS of cologne. We didn't care, because we were there to have fun, and we were drunk and stoned. Hell yes. It was fun as HELL. I have never had that much fun at the Royl. EVER. Jenelle got TRASHED. Oh shit. she was so drunk. It was amazing. let's see, falling down the stairs, making out with two not so cute girls, danced with every person in there, got kicked out, came back in, and got 2 beers taken away from her. We all danced our asses off though, and didn't care who was looking. I thought everyone there was a queened out drama fuckface. We got hit on so much though. Interesting. I know why. Exactly why. Because we were REAL. Jennifer Lopez says it best. "what you get is what you see". I mean who the fuck cares? We all made out with at least 1 person (with the exception of Scott, because he has a boyfriend) I made out with a guy, Devon. We switched numbers. I don't know if IU'll call him. It really is true when you STOP looking, and STOP putting yourself down, STOP getting all stressed and depressed, things do happen. You realize how hot you really are. You put off an energy that people are attracted to. It's amazing. Here's to a great weekend.

Cheers.

wow all of these posts in one day.

wow. My life could not get anymore complicated. Okay. Maybe it can. Well, I know it can. Still though. It's like this. I can now add one more person to the list of names of people I know who read my blog.

Hudson.

Damn. It was a shocking experience. It's all good though. I don't mind at all. It was much more shocking when I found out members of Peace read it. In a way, I'm kind of glad, because it's not like I would ever say anything about my crush. Well not to him at least. Now he knows, and the world is a better place. Learn something new everyday huh?

wow. Next I'll hear that Dreamworks Pictures reads my blog and wants to make a movie out of my life. Boy what an interesting picture that would make.

Smile. that's the best thing to do when you don't know what else to do! Laugh it off. It actually helps

Then: Getting up at the crack of dawn, going to school, staying awake all day, going to play rehersal, and then home to eat, and or sleep, and or to do homeowork, if I get around to that.

Except it's worse.

Now: I get up at the butt crack of dawn, go to (hard) school, stay awake all day, go to WORK, call everyone who called me throughout the day, make sure everything's fine at the office, answer emails, THEN, go home to eat, and or sleep, and or do homework.

Sounds pretty much the same right?!

Except now, I have these thoughts that didn't exist in high school: Do I have money for lunch (no)? Is there enough food for dinnner tonight? If I get books on this paycheck, I can't pay bills, so I'll have to pay the late fee. That's cool, it's only $15. Maybe I can ask daddy to send me some money. I hate doing that. I an support myself. Oh, is that a quarter on the ground? Yes! Only 6 more and I have enough to ride the train! Unless I have money on my CTA card. How much do I have on it? I hope Sophia doesn't fire me because I couldn't go into the office today. I have to keep my internship. I wonder if I can take out another student loan to pay for stuff... How much money can I save on this paycheck? Boys really don't like me, I know. It's okay. What about that Alyssa girl in Lit? She's really cute. I told Scott that she'd make a hot guy. He aggreed. I should get to know her. When can I go back home to visit? If I don't finish this one chapter in Lit, I can finish my Economics homework, and still get to bed before 2. I'll read on the train. How can I pick up an extra shift at work? How's Bed Fellow post production going? I can sleep on my break at work. Only 3 more hours until I can go home and eat. Maybe in between the classes. Ew. I have bags under my eyes. I need to get some eye cream. Can I afford that? It's a small price to pay for beauty. I have to do laundry. Good underwear is a good thing. Maybe I can go one more day in these.

Haha. Okay the last thought never goes through my head, but still. It's different. Things that you thought you would never have to worry about in high school, all of a sudden come to life.

Everyone is moving back home. My friend Helena, my sister, Melissa G, Eddie comes back from the Air Force.. and so on...

Only 1.5 more years Christopher...

I WILL make it. I have to. It's my destiny.

but for now, only 3 more hours of work until I get to go to sleep.

Haha. Chad is officially the man. I think he and Erika should have a joint comic strip. It would be awesome. Like NonSequiter meets Rhymes with Orange.

Oh. I thought I made a post yesterday. Guess I didn't. Hmm. Anyways, I'm here in the computer lab, illegally, possibly, because I don't yet have a HW student ID. Oh well. I got out of Chemistry an hour early, because I was done. I can't say that class is hard. Well not yet at least, but it's still kicking my hiney, only because it's at 8:00 in the morning EVERY DAY. I gotta do it though. I just gotta. Let me give a low down of my classes thus far.

Monday: PChem (8:00-10), and Literature, "the great books." (11:00-12:20)
Chemistry isn't hard, but staying awake is quite the task. Literature is awesome. Well I've only had one class (I've got it again in 45 minutes) and it sounds pretty neato toledo. We're reading now Symposium by Plato. I just finished the Introduction. Okay, I'm reading the introduction now, but I have to type this post first.

Tuesday: PChem (8:00-10), , and Economics (MICRO)(11:00-12:20)
Read earlier about Chem. Economics is going to be great, if some people drop out of the class, because it's too full. I've got a great teacher who is more interested in making sure we keep up on all of the current world events. He believes that Economics is all based on politicts, so it's basically a current polital science class. that rocks. We are required to read the "World" section and the "Business" Section of the newspaper at least three times a week. I think that's just awesome.

Wednesday PChem LAB (8:00-10:50), and Literature.(11:00-12:20)
Just got of lab, and about to go to Lit.

Thursday: PChem(8:00-10), and Econ(11:00-12:20).

Friday: Humanities 201. I think it sounds dumb, but it's a 6 credit class, and it goes every friday from 8:30-12:30. It's the only day i don't have Chem, but it sounds easy, and it's an "advanced" Sophomore class.

and then there's work. Monday, Tuesday, and thursday, I work from 1-9. Every Wednesday and Friday, I have my internship from 1-5.

I should stop going to bed at 2AM. I will wear myself out. Tonight I will get to bed early. That's my goal for the day.

There's no time for anything else. That's good. I'll be able to fully concentrate on the things that need to get done. Yaay rah.

Now it's time to finish this Introduction.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER CRYSTAL!

I sound like i'm in church. Hardy har. Anyways, I just got out of my first class of the semester. Chemistry. It acutally wasn't bad at all. I remember alot from High school, which is a good thing, because I'm in PCHEM 290 which is Junior Chemistry. I don't know how I placed into that Chemistry, but I did. Amen. I've got Literature next in an hour, but I'm about to go to the bookstore to look at books and stuff, then to work.

Adam wants to take me to see Big Fish tonight after work. Hmmm. I don't know about Adam. I mean he's cute as hell, but I don't think he likes me. We'll see. Oh yes, by the way, Adam is Ben's (my roomate, not Miley) best friend.

I've got work after that. I hope they don't get mad at me, but I really can't come in until 1. I have this thing called class. I told them that, and I've called many times.

Well, Hope this semester is an awesome one!

Here's to school! cheers!

Before I begin, I must say Hello to my good Friend Chadley. Chadley is the greatest. Hello Chadley, this shout-out is for you.

Now I shall begin.
I want to type this all before Midnight, but it's not going to happen, but I'll do my best.

Today: I slept all day. Got up (well josh woke me up, because he wanted a computer, and I am the one with the 'hook-up') Brushed my teeth Went to work, got Josh his computer, Decorated book for Tom (boss who's leaving) went around with Josh, looked at phones, (I AM getting a new one), and ate some chicken nuggets. Went home. Went BACK to sleep. Woke up. Called some people. Went to Gina and Danielle's Play. AWESOME. KICK ASS. I love Theater. I LOVE it. I want to change my major RIGHT now. Yeah. Then I decided to go with Danielle to her Tonkowat meeting. At the train station, a girl asked if we were siblings. I said that we could be (although we couldn't because she isn't black, but it's all good, hey. I guess we have some similaities.) but we weren't. 'Twas funny. THEN. she STRAIGHT UP asked if we were in a ROCK BAND. I had to bust out. It was incredible. Danielle and were confused. 'Twas hee-larious. with a capital HEE. Now, I sit here at this meeting, wishing I was in this theater company. I am so happy that I get the opportunity to do this documentary. These people love each other. It's awesome. FUN TIMES. I am about head out, and call Grant. Then I am going to go home, set my clothes out, and START SCHOOL TOMORROW! YAAY!.

MUCH LOVE

looks like Rich has really found his man. wow. Fun times. That's souper sexiting. I am happy for him. go rich! Ten points! (you can read all about it in my sidebar)

I'm smiling now, for no real reason, but damnit! I can smile too! Haha.

okay. now back to work.

Today's day at work will be over in aprox. 3 hours and 30 minutes. Then I will do something, but I don't know what. Hmm... Sleep sounds amazing. As does eating. This week, my eating habits have consisted of:

Monday: Breakfast-bowl of cereal, lunch-nothing, dinner-oven pizza.
Tuesday: Breakfast-bowl of cereal, lunch-nothing, dinner-CBA (the day I lost my money)
Wednesday: Breakfast-bowl of cereal, lunch-nothing, dinner-homemade bean dip and chips
Thursday: Breakfast-nothing, lunch-nothing, dinner-CBA
Friday: Breakfast-rice krispy treat, lunch-nothing, dinner (at 1:45 AM) pizza
Saturday (today): Breakfast-Naked fruit smoothie, Lunch-popcorn, and not eaten dinner yet..

What a delicious and nutritious diet.

Wow. I don't eat lunch anymore, and it doesn't bother me. My body's used to it. Getting up, grabbing a bowl of cereal before my shower, showering, going to work, coming home from work, then eating at wherever I am at (my house, Scott's, Danielle's, whatever.)

This week has been so long.

I really want to go to a party tonight. Really bad.

OH MY GOOODNESS~

It took me FOREVER AND A DAY TO DO THIS, but I FINALLY HAVE!

YES!

A COMMENTS PAGE! IT IS HERE!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE comment!!!!

I have decided I will now live for people's comments. Yes, my life depends on you. Even go back to any post and comment on it! I want to read them! Please comment!

Who wants to be the first person to comment?

Well, let's see!

i'll respond to them all, I promise!

Hey there!

I am happy for ONE and only ONE reason.

It is Friday.

This has been a not really great week. Let's re-cap:

~Lost $500
~my ipod erased all of it's songs for NO particular reason (that happened last night)
~have to pay for college before Monday (with no money, but it's just a down payment, so i'll have it all situated)
~I'm EXTREMELY tired
~my schedule at work is ALL wrong.
~I was so excited about my new realization, and I haven't even looked at a guy in two days, then last night as I walked home (I have to walk everywhere, because I have no money to ride the train, until I get my U-Pass, so I've been walking home in 5-20 degree weather for the past couple of days) I saw the HOTTEST guy I have ever seen in my life, and we made eye contat, and you know, the usual turn around after we pass each other, but DAMN. It sucked.
~We're not having a party for Jenelle tonight
~I have NO money
~I have had no time to eat, because I've been running/walking around all week, trying to get my life straight.
~it will never be,
~because i'm gay.

haha. that was funny. At least it's Friday. Monica is having a potluck tonight, and I don't know if I want to go, but i feel that I have to. I'll think of something to cook.

wow. what a week.

The last couple of days:

LOST $500

that's about all.

it sucks assests.

I am now BROKE until my next caypheck.

yes, I know it's spelled wrong asshole.

Oh yes, and new ehpiany

I AM OFFICALLY OFF THE MARKET. Meaning, I am not looking for a guy anymore, and that's a promise. He'll come to me. If it takes 5 minutes, or 5 hours, 5 days, 5 weeks, 5 months, 5 years. I'm okay with this now. Besides. I want to work on my own shit. I am selfish, and the guy I am with will have to realize this. I want him to not find a fault with me, because I am not changing for anyone.

Boo Yow.

Take that you fiend.

Boy Next Door - Your ideal guy is the brotherly and
huggable boy next door. He's always around,
knows you better than anyone, and loves to
cuddle. He's not neccessarily attractive to
most, but something about him makes him
charming and adorable in your eyes.
Turn ons: One word - cute. He gets you teddy bears
and kisses your forehead, loves hand holding
and telling you that he loves you.
Turn offs: He'll screw up somewhere down the line -
but we all make mistakes. Forgive him, because
all he can do is learn from it and love you all
the more!


What is your ideal type of guy? (With Pictures)
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Okay. I have to admit. I took it again. Which one do you think I origially got? Essentially, this is the guy I want, so it's not a lie, the boy next door is the perfect match for me, but it's not what the quiz said. Okay, I'll tell you. My original one was PREP:


Prep - Your ideal guy is the charmingly intelligent
Prep. He's into his armani and nice car...but
equally into you. You and him are the Barbie
and Ken couple!
Turn ons: You're parents'll love him and you'll be
the envy of all your friends.
Turn offs: He's shallow and can't help himself...so
don't let him change you.


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which is totally true too. My life is sad

I spent the whole weekend with Ben and Scott. I was with them probably 68 of 72 hours of the weekend. I know, sad, but we had fun times. I love those boys.

One thing: they told me I won't have a relaionship until I'm 25, because I'm too old, and sometimes I think too much, and no one can give me what I want at our age. The sad part is, it's totally true. Most likely I won't have a boyfriend until I'm 25 or 26.

Cheers. Here's to 6 years of waiting

I am having a wonderful 2004. I had an AWESOME party, and a GREAT sleep the night before last. and yesterday.

I got up at 12
only to fall back alseep.
when I awoke at 2. I
decided to clean up for a bit, and
take a shower.
I couldn't shave because
I left all that stuff at Kisha's, but
I looked super cute anyways.
I listened to India.Arie's
Voyage to India
all day.
Hear it now.
I ate a souper big bowl of
Frosted Flakes
and Scott called becuase he wanted to see
The Company.
I had no money, but he said
he would pay.
I'll pay him back tonight.
I got to his house, and
he still had to shower,
but that was okay, because I was
in no rush,
to do anything.
I got a paper,
and some Coke
(yes the drink, I don't to that mess)
and waited for Scott to get out of the shower.
He got a new book by
Stephen Chbosky
well it's not really new, and it's not really
written by him but
edited.
Nonetheless,
it's new to him.
Him being Scott.
Back to the story.
I was looking at showtimes, and we decided
to see
The Company
at 7:20.
It was 5:30.
we had time to kill.
plan for the night.
leave the house, walk to the movie theater
(it was amazingly nice outside last night)
and hang out around there until the show started.
We talked about how the price for a
movie ticket
had just been raised to
$10.25
in New York, and how
expensive
that really is.
They'll do that here soon, we both know it.
Well, anyways,
we got to the movie theater, and
decided to see
Big Fish
instead.
This decision was probably the best decision we have made in
a long, long, long,
time.
One of the greatest of both of our lives.
We still had time which needed to be slaughered though.
so we went to Panera and
each had a bagel.
Then we played baseball*
before the movie.
in an old parking lot.
We bought a TON
no, a TON and a half
of candy.
the whole works.
In Walgreens
we had to sneak in all that
candy.
we laughed so hard.
we opened all that candy before the movie started.
(i'm still running off of all that sugar)
I'll leave out the movie.
I will just say it was
the single greateste movie
I have
ever seen
in my life.
okay.
at least top 5.
seriously.
I cried
I NEVER cry in movies.
well not out and out cry.
I was a baby.
tears were streaming.
damn.
that's all I can say about that.
we then picked up a sac.
I should be a supplier.
no one would ever guess.
back to Scott's house.
we then read stories to each other
from the new book.
it was awesome.
and talked about our future year
that is ahead of us.
it's going to be a great one.
fell asleep thinking about how awesome everything will be
in just a few months.
I'm finally starting my screenplay.
I'm excited.
My shoulder hurts
because I slept on it
wrong.
so I'm at work
with my shoulder hurting
having a great day.




*baseball: a game which is played in preperation of getting baked. Person number one takes one hit, and before he can exhale, he must get the bat and ball back.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

This is the summary of my New Year's:

1. Got Up
2. Cleaned Room for Justin's party
3. Talked to Katie whilst eating breakfast
4. Chilled with Sarah, Danielle, and Gina.
5. Shopped with Sarah
6. Invited people to party
7. waited FOREVER for money to get transfered so i could go buy liquor.
8. bought TONS and TONS of Liquor
A. Bacardi Gold
B. Vodka
C. Coconut Rum
D. Champagne (12 bottles)
E. 2 Cases of beer
F. Malt beverages
G. Tequilla (you know me and my boy Jose)
9. Totaling about $200 bucks.
10. Got ready
11. Looked EXTRA hot.
12. Extra Extra hot
13. Read all about it.
14. Went to set up
15. Jewel was CLOSED.
16. Oh Shit.
17. Got Pizza instead of hours'd'overs
19. It was fine.
20. People showed up.
21. I started to drink.
22. This should have been number 10.
23. I smoked a bit.
24. Okay a little more than a bit.
25. Drank a little more.
26. More people showed
27. I had fun.
28. New Year's on the Beach
29. With a bonfire
30. and over 50 people.
31. At my party.
32. It was AMAZING.
33. Fireworks
34. and 12 bottles of chanpagne.
35. Indescribable.
36. Called home drunk.
37. They laughed at me.
38. The night goes on
39. drunken friends.
40. went to bed at 7:30
41. to be up at 8:30
42. To be at work at 9:30
43. which is where I am now
44. tired as hell
45. but getting paid time and a half
46. boo-yow.
47. I am sleeping ALL NIGHT
48. tonight.
49. This is the last number before I say
50. Goodbye