What's up? Yeah so I got home from Youth group/goodberry's. Then we watched Mafia. That movie is funny, but I almost fell asleep. I don't know why. IT'S JULY!! Yeah so remember how I put all that crap about Sarah Jane in here the other week? Well now she is my ACE again. I mean it's like she changed. I guess it's b/c we identify on another level sometimes. Yeah, Carey is not and will never be my ace again, don't worry, I'm not that fickle.sheeet. I am more obsessed with some X more than ever. Just ask Maya. (good thing you can't) I will take some X anyday. Allie Stieh is my girl. Some people in the youth group think she talks too much, but I don't. (probablly b/c I talk just as much or more). I know I can tell Allie stuff and it will not get spread around. She keeps her mouth shut. That is my ACE. Shoot. I miss her when she's not at Youth Group. she keeps me cracking up for days. I am still mad she is not taking me to New York though. I want her to go on the Beach retreat, b/c I don't think it will be fun times, but I guess I have to make it fun times, although none of my home dogs are going. Sad times. Well I don't know what else to say, other than X is hotness. Beyonce's new song Work it Out is the hotness too. I hated her when she was with Destiny's b/c she's a hog, but she does good by herself. shoot I can rock out to that song, and tear it up! HTFY! I love X! Work it out, and down to the ground! Well I am bizzing now! 11 days till my birthday! I love myself!

Hey hey hey here's my old blog:Hey. Turkey won! I am glad. It was an awesome game. Korea played really hard, but couldn’t beat Turkey. Turkey deserved third place. The ultimate Cinderella team. Fun times for them! The other day I bought Moulin Rouge, and A Beautiful Mind. Both excellent movies. I still have dreams about X. I have some issues. I cannot get X out of my mind on the reals. I have been watching Fox Sports World all day. Well until I had to go to work. Work was fun. We are hiring again, b/c like all the college graduates are leaving b/c they have to go to grad school, and stuff like that. Fun times for them sad times for me, b/c I have to basically train all these new people, but it’s okay. I can’t wait for the World Cup soccer game! Coverage starts at 6:30, and it’s 2:30AM. I might as well not go to bed. Haha. Shoot. Germany hopefully will win, although Brazil plays some awesome soccer, they also play nasty, and I am not all about that. 13 Days (well actually 12) till my Birthday! I am getting my tounnge pierced! I am so excited. Well I am going to bed, so I can get some sleep, b/c I ha ve to go straight to church after the game. Man, I don’t know if I can stay awake, b/c after church, I have to go to work! Wowsers. DANGIT! My computer isn’t logging me on, so I am typing in Word, and I will paste it in the morning. Goodnight all!

Oh my goodness. OKay so get this my computer was so screwey last night. It's actually kinda funny, because I am posting this blog (from the computer at work) before I post the one that I wrote last night. I saved it on Word, so I can just copy/paste it when I get online. It's sunday, and Brazil won the World Cup, 2-0 extremely sad, b/c I was going for Germany, but Brazil has an excellent team so I'm not mad, just sad. The Junior Highers and the interns come back this evening from the mountains, and that's exciting, because I can't wait for the stories my brother will tell me. I still remember my mountain trips from when I was in Jr. highs. Man those were the times. I am reminessing (I totally misspelled that last word). I still have a huge crush on X. i was straight up drawing some X's all through Sunday School. Speaking of Sunday school, no one that I usually go with (Sarah, Maya, Bridgette) were at church today. Now that is some sad times too. Extrememly sad times. So I went to Sr. High Sunday school, instead of college sunday school. More sad times: so at work, in like 2 weeks, there will be like no more original staff, except for Me, Jessie, and Greg. Everyone else is leaving for grad school, or some other life adventure, so we have to hire a million and one more new people. That's good, because I can get some of my freinds jobs here. Yaay fun times. I love soccer. My kids are going to play, starting at the age of 2. Man I love that sport, I just wish I could play. I'm sure I could, but there's no way I would ever get really good, like Oliver Khan, or Brian McBride, or DeMarcus Beasley, or Landon Donnovan. or John O Brien, but that's okay. Well I have to leave work now, and go to youth group. YAAY FUN TIMES! Well I'll write later. signing off

Emotional: gitty
Physical: Hyper
Thankful: Toberlone chocolate
Look Forward to: youth group
Hope: I have an awesome time at the Beach
Movie: Bottle Rocket
Music: ??
Disgusting People's hair

Hahah I didn't notice that I posted the last one twice. That's funny. Man, soo much has gone on since Saturday night. Man. Sunday night, I was so mad. I can't explain how mad I was. Isn't it wierd how sometimes people you thought were your freinds treat you like (pardon my french) shit? It's pathetic. My freindship is ruined forever with this person, Carey. We were best freinds for almost 3 years, and a certain incident involving my current best friend and sister, put a break in our firendship. We haven't been extremely close since then, and what happened on Sunday garunteed the fact that I will never trust her again. I know it's bad to go to extremes like that, but sometimes, that's the way it is. I tried to talk to her about it, because I don't like for my problems to fester. Too bad she left for California today, with another one of my used-to-be best friends, Beth. I don't want to go into details, because I am trying to stay in a fairly good mood. Cameron, my little bro (I call him Roonus) left for the mountains with his Junior High youth group. Man i loved that trip when i went. He is going to have some fun times, especially white water rafting. HAHA speaking of white water rafting, Monday, I was in Wal-Mart (just shopping for some DVD's) and I remembered that I told Cam that I would buy him another pair of shoes so he wouldn't have to ruin his good ones rafting. So I bought him some Snappers (you know the velcro shoes? I have called them snappers since I was like 5, so that's the name I gave them). Too bad those shoes look extra hotness. Yeah. Today I worked with this new guy Chris. He's cool. Man, I can't wait till Sunday. I don't know why (well actually I do, but I am not going to say). The World Cup Final game is on Sunday. That's why. Yeah, that's umm it. hahah. fun times for me. I just took Renee's dog, Trixie for a walk. She's fat. well not anymore, she's just plump now. We walked for an hour and 8 minutes, and she was TIRED. It's funny to see her tired. She drinks like she's never seen water in her life, then she plops down. Hahaha. That is some fun times. I have a crush. We'll call this person, X. I am not going to say who it is, but man, I have been having some dreams, and they are quite nice. Not like sex dreams, or wet dreams, but just lovey-dovey dreams. Maya doesn't like the person I have a crush on. Well it's not that she doesn't like X, but she thinks X is kinda weird. That's okay, b/c X is hot. Very hot. X is on Fire. okay, let me stop. I don't know if X likes, me, but I don't care, b/c it's not like I would ever try to persue anything, I never do. Never have, and won't start soon. Well if I am 100% or even like 99%, well hell, if X is even 50% interested, then heck yes I will do something about that, but for now, it's just good to have a crush, b/c I haven't had one in forever. Not even Joan. Joan wasn't a crush, just a fling, that I really didn't have interest in. But X... Let me tell you, let me tell you. X makes me go crazy, like weak in the knees, and no one, I mean NO ONE has ever made me do that. EVER. Well, I'll leave on that note.

Emotional: In love
Physical: Tired
Thankful: Dreams
Look forward to: Tomorrow
Hope: Get off work July 5, and 6
Movie: mumford
Music: hot in chere
Disgusting: PDA to the extreme with ugly people

Wassup?! Good knight! It’s been two days! Well I mean if you count today as Sunday, then it’s been 2 days, but if we say it’s Saturday night, then only one. I just got back from seeing Minority Report. Talk about a hotness movie. Tom Cruise is the man. It was the perfect summer blockbuster (although it prolly won’t gross nearly as much as the record-topping Spider Man or Harry Potter, the two biggest weekend grossing movies of all time. I mean come on now, the king of mega hits, Steven Spielberg, the best composer, John Williams, and the biggest actor, Tom Cruise. It was awesome, and I am usually not a fan of action movies, but this wasn’t action. I’m not really into big mainstream movies either, I like smaller, Hollywood, and Independent movies. Yes, there are some terrific Major motion pictures, but most don’t get to me like good movies do. I was sad that I didn’t get to see the movie with Robbie, Danny, and Richard (the latter two were in my Bible Study, I was going to take them to a movie), but I went with my family, (including my little bro Cameron, who is also in the Bible study), and Renee. Maya was supposed to come, but her trifflin tail wanted to see Lilo and Stitch first. She has some deep issues ingrained in her head. Well since it’s been so long, let me update you on the past coupla days.

Friday: oh what a depressing day, well for soccer, at least. England and the USA lost. I was devastated. Beginning with England: they were so close to beating Brazil. The Brizillians are awesome soccer players, yes, but England could have pulled it off. It’s like they were slacking, like they wanted to lose. After a Brizillian got a red card, the English started playing some sloppy ball. They could have scored so many times. I feel so bad for them, because they deserved to beat Brazil. Now for the US. It was an awesome game, and the Germans, are some brutes. Those are some HUGE guys! The US looked like a team on Mini-Me’s. (Austin Powers)! They played hard, and some bad calls were made, but we didn’t prevail, sad to say. We lost. Very depressing. Well after the games, I went to work for 12 hours, on 3 hours of sleep [from 4:15 till 7:15(because the World Cup games are at 2:30 and 7:30 AM, so the are seen live)]. Needless to say, I was tired when I got home. It was fun though. Until five o’clock, it was very boring, but it picked up after everyone (the workers) got there. I got home, and my sister’s bf and his friend, Chancey were waiting for Crystal to get home from work, so she could go back to Greenville with them. Maya came over, and we watched the Newlywed game, then I went to sleep, because I was anticipating I would go to King’s Dominion the next day. (Don’t worry that part is coming up)

Saturday: SAD TIMES! I didn’t go to King’s Dominion today. Well, we were suppoed to leave around like 11, but Maya got the call (or rather didn’t get the call) so she had to go into work. Yeah, we wanted her to come, but we were going to go anyways. So I was about to call Robbie, and my mom says you know, leaving this late, you’re going to hit some major traffic in Richmond. That would have turned our trip at least another hour longer, so we decided to wait till we could leave earlier. Sad times. We will go another day. I know we will, b/c I want to. Yes yes yes. Now for the ghetto part of Saturday. Okay so I call Robbie, and Danny to see if they wanted to go to the movies tonight. I told him I would call him back at about 6 or 7, because I went to this pig pickin’ (enough said) with my mom. Well, we were supposed to be back by like 6:30, so I was thinking ya, know an 8 o’clock movie would be perfect. Yaaay rah for that. Well, we get to the guys house. (his name is Jeff, he works with my mom) There are people from The Station there, and so I think, oh we’ll be here much shorter than expected… my mom said the same thing, so things were going perfectly. Well, the food wasn’t ready on time, so we didn’t eat until about 4 (we got there at 3:30). Still not a problem, my mom would mingle for about an hour, and we’d be gone, right? NOT THE CASE. So this girl, Tara gets drunk off of her butt, (well I have seen drunk people, and she didn’t seem all the way drunk, until she started throwing up.. it seemed like most of it was to get attention, and she was just being an ass) and everyone is laughing at her, having a good time. She began to get on my nerves quickly. I wanted to smack her across the face. Then, I was like, ‘so when are we going to leave?’ and my mom says let’s wait for Chief (Chris) and Charles to get here, and I’ll talk to them, then we’ll go. Those were bad words from the start. When my mom talks to Chris and Charles, she TALKS. I don’t have a problem with that, b/c they are really funny, and cool, but dang! We end up getting out of there at 8:30. I spent 5 hours in the middle of nowhere at a redneck party (sorry for the stereotype) I call Maya in the car, and tell her that we are on her way home, but we were going to stop by the mall first, b/c my mom wanted to get an earring to go in her cartilage. We get home at 9:25, Robbie has called, saying they went to the 8:15 show, and I wasn’t mad, b/c they didn’t have to wait for me, shoot, I would have done the same thing. Then Maya meets us at my house, and I tell her we are going to the movie. I guess she didn’t think we would still go, but we did, and she didn’t go. That’s okay too, b/c I can’ blame her if she wants to see some ghettoness Lilo and Stitch (hahaha) Yeah, so that’s been that.

Fun times for me huh? I’ll do some quick assessments
Emotional: Drained
Physical : DOG TIRED
Thankful: Sleep
Look Forward to: Church in the Morn
Hope: I can get off of work July 5. 6. and 7
Movie: minority Report
Music: not G105 (oh my gosh I heard the same 10 songs like 1000 times at the pic pickin)
Disgusting: MIB 2 (don’t get me started)

That’s all I can think of right now. I have to go. I am so tired, and I have to get up for church. Goodnight, and thanks for listening

Wassup?! Good knight! It’s been two days! Well I mean if you count today as Sunday, then it’s been 2 days, but if we say it’s Saturday night, then only one. I just got back from seeing Minority Report. Talk about a hotness movie. Tom Cruise is the man. It was the perfect summer blockbuster (although it prolly won’t gross nearly as much as the record-topping Spider Man or Harry Potter, the two biggest weekend grossing movies of all time. I mean come on now, the king of mega hits, Steven Spielberg, the best composer, John Williams, and the biggest actor, Tom Cruise. It was awesome, and I am usually not a fan of action movies, but this wasn’t action. I’m not really into big mainstream movies either, I like smaller, Hollywood, and Independent movies. Yes, there are some terrific Major motion pictures, but most don’t get to me like good movies do. I was sad that I didn’t get to see the movie with Robbie, Danny, and Richard (the latter two were in my Bible Study, I was going to take them to a movie), but I went with my family, (including my little bro Cameron, who is also in the Bible study), and Renee. Maya was supposed to come, but her trifflin tail wanted to see Lilo and Stitch first. She has some deep issues ingrained in her head. Well since it’s been so long, let me update you on the past coupla days.

Friday: oh what a depressing day, well for soccer, at least. England and the USA lost. I was devastated. Beginning with England: they were so close to beating Brazil. The Brizillians are awesome soccer players, yes, but England could have pulled it off. It’s like they were slacking, like they wanted to lose. After a Brizillian got a red card, the English started playing some sloppy ball. They could have scored so many times. I feel so bad for them, because they deserved to beat Brazil. Now for the US. It was an awesome game, and the Germans, are some brutes. Those are some HUGE guys! The US looked like a team on Mini-Me’s. (Austin Powers)! They played hard, and some bad calls were made, but we didn’t prevail, sad to say. We lost. Very depressing. Well after the games, I went to work for 12 hours, on 3 hours of sleep [from 4:15 till 7:15(because the World Cup games are at 2:30 and 7:30 AM, so the are seen live)]. Needless to say, I was tired when I got home. It was fun though. Until five o’clock, it was very boring, but it picked up after everyone (the workers) got there. I got home, and my sister’s bf and his friend, Chancey were waiting for Crystal to get home from work, so she could go back to Greenville with them. Maya came over, and we watched the Newlywed game, then I went to sleep, because I was anticipating I would go to King’s Dominion the next day. (Don’t worry that part is coming up)

Saturday: SAD TIMES! I didn’t go to King’s Dominion today. Well, we were suppoed to leave around like 11, but Maya got the call (or rather didn’t get the call) so she had to go into work. Yeah, we wanted her to come, but we were going to go anyways. So I was about to call Robbie, and my mom says you know, leaving this late, you’re going to hit some major traffic in Richmond. That would have turned our trip at least another hour longer, so we decided to wait till we could leave earlier. Sad times. We will go another day. I know we will, b/c I want to. Yes yes yes. Now for the ghetto part of Saturday. Okay so I call Robbie, and Danny to see if they wanted to go to the movies tonight. I told him I would call him back at about 6 or 7, because I went to this pig pickin’ (enough said) with my mom. Well, we were supposed to be back by like 6:30, so I was thinking ya, know an 8 o’clock movie would be perfect. Yaaay rah for that. Well, we get to the guys house. (his name is Jeff, he works with my mom) There are people from The Station there, and so I think, oh we’ll be here much shorter than expected… my mom said the same thing, so things were going perfectly. Well, the food wasn’t ready on time, so we didn’t eat until about 4 (we got there at 3:30). Still not a problem, my mom would mingle for about an hour, and we’d be gone, right? NOT THE CASE. So this girl, Tara gets drunk off of her butt, (well I have seen drunk people, and she didn’t seem all the way drunk, until she started throwing up.. it seemed like most of it was to get attention, and she was just being an ass) and everyone is laughing at her, having a good time. She began to get on my nerves quickly. I wanted to smack her across the face. Then, I was like, ‘so when are we going to leave?’ and my mom says let’s wait for Chief (Chris) and Charles to get here, and I’ll talk to them, then we’ll go. Those were bad words from the start. When my mom talks to Chris and Charles, she TALKS. I don’t have a problem with that, b/c they are really funny, and cool, but dang! We end up getting out of there at 8:30. I spent 5 hours in the middle of nowhere at a redneck party (sorry for the stereotype) I call Maya in the car, and tell her that we are on her way home, but we were going to stop by the mall first, b/c my mom wanted to get an earring to go in her cartilage. We get home at 9:25, Robbie has called, saying they went to the 8:15 show, and I wasn’t mad, b/c they didn’t have to wait for me, shoot, I would have done the same thing. Then Maya meets us at my house, and I tell her we are going to the movie. I guess she didn’t think we would still go, but we did, and she didn’t go. That’s okay too, b/c I can’ blame her if she wants to see some ghettoness Lilo and Stitch (hahaha) Yeah, so that’s been that.

Fun times for me huh? I’ll do some quick assessments
Emotional: Drained
Physical : DOG TIRED
Thankful: Sleep
Look Forward to: Church in the Morn
Hope: I can get off of work July 5. 6. and 7
Movie: minority Report
Music: not G105 (oh my gosh I heard the same 10 songs like 1000 times at the pic pickin)
Disgusting: MIB 2 (don’t get me started)

That’s all I can think of right now. I have to go. I am so tired, and I have to get up for church. Goodnight, and thanks for listening

Bible Study was great. We talked about the Youth Group, and about how God leads us, and we started to develop a mission statement. It was good. Robbie wants to go to King's Dominion on Saturday. All I have to do is get off of work, and it will be all good. I hope I can. That mess will be soo fun. THE USA plays tomorrow! 7:30! We are having another party at the Jorgenson's, and Mrs Jorgenson is cooking breakfast. How fun! I can't wait. I have to work a double shift tomorrow. I am excited, because I will have some fun times. I love working. I don't know what else to say, really. Yeah, I went to the McKee's and Alex, that little boy is cratchified! I mean he is a rowdy one! He's in third grade, and that boy has enough enerrgy to supply the world for at least ten years. He shouldn't go to sleep, because sleep gives him more energy. Oh goodness! Minority Report comes out tomorrow! i just remembered! Talk about some fun times! I can't wait! That movie is going to be hot off the hook. Well, I think I am going to go to sleep, so I can get up to watch the England game at 2:30. That will be wild! It's amazing that I am hooked on some world cup soccer. Truly amazing. I will always have an appreciation for soccer, because of this summer. Blue's Clues was a re-run AGAIN, but that's okay, it was still good. That show will always be good. Joe is an awesome host. 22 days till my birthday! EXCITING!! Oh you know what? Everything I wanted to do for my birthday, my mom is doing for hers. Sad times, but she deserves it. Her b-day is 4 days after mine, and i wanted to go to Bahama Breeze, but we are taking her there, and renting a limo, and crusing the town, etc. etc. Yeah, well I am going to go to bed now. NIGHT!

Emotional: Uplifted, and excited about the coming days
Physical: Drained
Wish: for certain things
Thankful: God's grace
Music: Resonance (Mark and Mike's band)
Movie: Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (that is the movie forever)
Disgusting: Bananas
Thing that was really not too bad, that I thought was going to be disgusting: Laura's Banana Nut Sensation (without the nuts haha)

What’s uppers? I’m excellente, and yes I said excellente (pronunciation: excellentay). Fun times on the real. I just had a good day in general. I mean it’s not like it was exceptional, but it wasn’t bad. I think it’s because of John Williams. Remember when I was all extra mad last night? Well when I listen to John Williams it always makes me feel better. I don’t know why I didn’t say that last night, I wasn’t thinking. I mean you could never guess what John Williams does for me. If you don’t know who John Williams is, then you should be shot twelve times in the head. He is the best composer of the twentieth and twenty first century, hand down. No contest. YES John Williams! That is my boy! Hmmm my day, was pretty melancholy. I got up, watched some TV, I missed Blue’s Clues (SAD TMIES), but my brother said it was a re-run so that’s good. I also didn’t watch any soccer! Man! That’s sad too. Soccer is my new fav. sport. Now I have something to watch when college football and basketball is over. That’s exciting. I cashed my paycheck today, and some more graduation checks. Speaking of graduation, I feel bad. I forgot (well I don’t know if you would call it forgetting) to send out graduation announcements. That’s really bad. I mean I had them, and they were basically done, but I just didn’t send them. I have issues. Here’s the thing. I only feel bad, because I don’t really know why, b/c I didn’t want them in the first place. I mean this is how I see it. I shouldn’t beg people for their money. If they are close to me, they should know that I am graduating, so they should send me something. Ya know? Maybe that’s the wrong way to se it, but I don’t care. I mean no biggie. Ok so anyways, back to my day. Crystal, Maya, and I went to pick up my mom from work, and we were ragging on each other the whole time we were at my mom’s place of work. It was fun. I saw Charles, he’s my mom’s friend, and they chill hard. Not in that way hard. Hahaha that would be funny. I would laugh hysterically. Then we had dinner. You know what was extra special about dinner? We had Blue’s Clues Macaroni. That was one of the highlights of my day, by far. Then we watched Bring it On for like the 500th time. Almost everyone that knows me can recite that movie, which is pathetic, because it sucks. After Bring it On, American Idol (a whack TV show that is similar to Pop Stars) came on, so we watched that. The top three people that America chose was surprising. I didn’t think Jay, or Matt, or whatever the heck his name was was going to make it. Yeah, it’s a retarded show. We then played Mad Gab. Christian didn’t play, and that made me sad, but we had fun. She’ll play sooner or later. Now I am writing to you. That was my day. TOMORROW IS BIBLE STUDY! I have been waiting for that mess all week. Friday is the USA game. That’s exciting too. I kinda want to go to Emerald Point, but then again, it is a water park, and we don’t get along to well. It might be fun, but work is better. I am listening to *NSYNC. It is about time they come out with another single or something. We need a hot summer song. Ya know? *NSYNC knows how to make a hot dance song. It’s the trufus. Yeah, so I am going to go to bed now. Fun times. Talk to you later!

Emotional: In high spirits
Physical: Tired, but not, yes I am tired.
Wish: I had all of John Williams compositions
Thankful: My job
Music Area: John Williams
Movie: Bring it On (what a not great movie)
Disgusting: soggy cereal

Yo. I just got back from Maya’s. We played some fun times games, and watched a couple of TV shows, it was quite fun. Sammy J., Jennifer, Reid, Robbie, Crystal, Maya and myself were there. I wanted more people to show up, but all I called couldn’t come, but that’s okay. We played Mad Gab, and Phase Ten. Those games are both fun times. I had a headache the whole time I was there, let me tell you why. This might take a whole, but then again, it might not. So my mom has a friend, Renee. No, before you jump to any conclusions, they are not friends like that, you know in that way, just best friends, like Maya and I are friends. Man, I don’t know where to start. Okay, well I’ll just say that she is over all the freaking time, and she gives us NO space. NONE NADA ZIPPO. I mean she is ALWAYS over here, cramping my style. I think she thinks she’s our mother at times. It is NOT Kosher (blessed by the Rabbi). She will be all in the biz, like it involves her. I will be talking to MY mom, and she will just interrupt like she is a member of the original conversation. Sorry, no one asked for her input. Sometimes, I want to cuss her butt out. Back to tonight, Crystal and I were making places to go out, ya know, to hang out. No biggie, right? We were going out to have some fun. My little sister, Christian, was at the church for praise band (I decided not to go). We concluded, (maybe we shouldn’t have) that Renee would pick up Christian. No big deal, because she always offers to pick us up, or drop us off, or when someone is gone, she will just do what needs to be done. So we are about to leave, and I asked her to pick up Christian, and she said no. I’m sorry, what is up with that? It’s not like she has anything better to do. I thought she was kidding at first, but she wasn’t. What the freak? Was she trying to teach us a lesson? If so, what lesson? It didn’t make any sense. She wasn’t going anywhere, she just wanted to be sure she inconvenienced us. Something is wrong there. When Crystal went out last night, she picked me up from work, no problem. Why was it so hard for her to drive 2.5 minutes down the road? We were 15 minutes away. I’m Probably not making any sense, but I know what I am saying. it’s not just that incident that upsets me. It’s her in general. What REALLY pisses me off, is she is planning on moving in here at the end of next month. Now that is a pile of doo doo. I am not going to have that, if I have anything to say about it. Her moving into this tiny house was not part of the original plan. The original plan was for us to get a BIGGER house, and we would live in that together. A bigger house would give everyone space, and it would be the best for everyone. I’ll tell you this right now; my mom, and Renee will find out soon, that if she moves in, I go out. I don’t know where I am going to stay (most def. not with my dad), but I will find somewhere. Shoot. Wanna talk about NOT KOSHER. She tries to rile me like she is my second mother. I already have a mother thank you very much, and for the most part, besides how she has been acting recently (like the last month) , she does a damn good job. I don’t want to go to bed upset, so I need to think of something that will make me happy. (Maya… hahaha gurl! You know what will make my tail happy. Shoot, it will make yours happy too! Man we were cracking up about that tonight! YES please, can I have some more of THAT! HAHAHAHA) Okay, well now I am happy. Well not really, but I’ll survive. I am really looking forward to Thursday. On Thursday, we have Bible study, and you know that last week was awesome. On Friday, the USA plays Germany, and that will be an intense game! I am going back to the Jorgenson’s to watch that game. Mrs. Jorgenson is making breakfast. Ummm umm good. I want a biscuit. I am HONGRY, but I can’t eat, it’s too late at night, it will just sit on my stomach, thus making me fat. Well, I’ll leave you with right now’s feelings:

Emotional: Mad, Angry, Upset, Confused, Pissed, but happy, when I think about things (haha)
Physical: I have a pounding headache.
Wish: I was someone else
Thankful: Myself
Music: ??
Movie:??
Disgusting Breaking bones

Blue's Clue's is AWESOME! "We just got a letter..." Man, I love that show. I try not to miss a day. Today's Blue's Clue's was the HOTNESS! It was all about colors. I learned a new color, chartreuse; it is a yellowish-green color. You make it by taking green (made with yellow and blue), and add more yellow. It's really pretty. Blue's Clue's is so awesome! The clues Blue gave us were the friend that she wanted to paint. It was Green Puppy. Joe is awesome. Nick Jr. is awesome. Blue's clue's is the highlight of my day. Well not THE highlight, but A highlight. Before Blue's Clues, I got up at 5:15 to go with my sister to take my mom to work. I had to pump the gas. You know I was dog tired. Not fun times. When I got home, I went straight back to bed. I got up again to watch Blue’s Clues, which you can tell, it was awesome. Then I watched some of Billy Elliott, and took a short nap. My sister comes in the room, and tells me to turn to channel 32 (ESPN 2). I do, and guess what’s on? World Cup Soccer (the previous night’s game). It was Japan/Turkey game. Turkey won 1-0. It was a good game. Japan was eliminated from the tourney, which is sad, because they are one of the two hosts of the World Cup. At about 1, Maya called me, and told me, we were going to go to Logo Joe’s and that she was on her way, so I hopped in the shower, and got ready. I called Robbie, to see if he wanted to go with us, because he wants to make shirts for the Sr. Highs, and Logo Joe’s is a great place to go. He was out to lunch, so we drove by, to see if they had gotten back, they hadn’t. So Maya took me to the bank (not mine, but the bank of Madstone) to cash my check. I didn’t have 2 forms of ID with me, so I couldn’t cash it, no big deal. I’ll do it tomorrow. After that, we went to Logo Joe’s, where Maya got a ZTA shirt. What if the shirt comes out all ghettofied? Wouldn’t that be funny? I would laugh. Next, we went to the mall, and I saw waay too many people that I knew. We made fun of the ugly people, and Maya got a new outfit (I picked it out). Then we saw Kelly, and found out she’s not getting married anymore, because she lost her baby. That’s really sad, but it’s good, because now she can get things straightened out. She can finish school, without the worries of a husband or a baby. She is completely abstinent which is excellent. Afterwards, Maya got something to eat, and took me home. When I got home, I ate a bowl of cereal (I hadn’t eaten all day) and now I am writing in my Blog. The Abrams report is on, so I am going to watch that now. Dan Abrams is the man. He tells it like it is. Well I am going to write back later. Christian and I have praise team meeting tonight (well really just Christian, I am just going). Write later!

Emotional: filled with glee
Physical: Can’t wait to go do something
Wish: Blue’s Clue’s was on all the time
Thankful: Blue’s Clues
Music Area: Isley Brothers
Movie: Legends of the Fall (what a great movie)
Disgusting: bugs

Hey hey hey hey. Man, today (well actually I think it was yesterday (Monday)) went by so quickly! The soccer game was awesome! I am a fan now. I watched the USA games that I missed today on ESPN classic. Soccer is awesome, too bad I can't play it though. The USA won 2-0 if you didn't watch the game. They eliminated Mexico (a huge rivalry) and advance to the quarterfinals! GO USA! I can't wait for the other game on Friday. The youth group goes to Emerald Point on Friday, but I am not going, b/c I hate water parks. If we went to an actual theme park, I would be all over that mess like white on rice. I love roller coasters. You know what is really getting to me? This is going to sound really stupid, but I am really mad at this. No, I'm not going to say it right now. It's reatarted. Okay. This really irks me. So I am talking to a group of people, you know bascially minding my own business. The topic: water games. Let me break it down for you. I don't like being wet when I don't have to be, or when it's not by choice (i.e. the shower, or the pool). Unless I am in the right mood (which is not often), I don't like water balloon games, or water fights, etc. Espcially when I am not wearing the appropriate clothing. The same goes for getting dirty. So this person (SJ) butts into my conversation, and is like, you know what? You're a real pansy. First of all, she was not all in the conversation. Second of all, who is she to go and try to call me out. I was like what? Okay whatever. That really pissed me off. Okay, we used to be really good friends, but we aren't anymore (I don't know why but that' life). I mean what the f*ck? That really pissed me off. I can't explain why. Who is she to call me a pansy? Okay, so I don't like to get wet. Wet people smell. Who says I want to smell for hours upon end. I don't like to reek of unessacary fumes if at all possible. Now when I go out and play basketball, or when I am doing something worthy enough for me to get wet, then so be it. You just don't do that. I'm sure she would be just as pissed, if I went up to her and said, Sarah Jane, you're an over-critical bitch who treats everyone like they are subserviant to you, and you need to get off of your high horse. See, people would think I was mean if I said that. I am blowing this problem waay out of hand, and I am probablly going to feel bad that I said this, but this is how I feel, and I don't need to hide my emotions. Shoot. I wanted to say that yesterday, but my dad got in the way, I totally forgot about what SJ had said. Well now, back to now. I went to work today, and was 1.50 over my drawer. (that's what I made in tips, and I didn't want to keep it.) After work, Mrs. Renee dropped me off at Maya's house. I rang the doorbell, and no one answered. I thought they (Crystal, Sarah, and Sammy J) were playing around, and didn't hear it ring, so I knocked. I was standing outside for about 20 minutes, and no one answered. I was getting ready to get mad, but I realized it was stupid to get mad over this. So I rang it for like the twentith time, and Maya thought it was Sarah playing around. She turned on the porchlight, saw me in the window, and freaked. Then Crystal saw me, and jumped. It was quite humerous. Everyone was leaving when I got inside, so we all left. Then I got home, and watched a movie with my little sister, called Citizen Ruth. It's about abortion. The movie pokes fun at both sides, and puts, a funny twist on the movie, but it really raises up some good thinking questions, about being pro-choice or pro-life. That is a subject I could talk about for hours, and also one, that I hate talking about, because people are so closed minded. I hate closed minded people. People with closed minds should come with closed mouths. That's all I have to say 'bout that (Forrest Gump.. what a great movie). Well I think I am going to head to bed now, it's 1:47 AM. That's not late, but I am tired. I have been really tired the last few days. Maybe I'm GROWING!!!!!!!!! That would be exciting, but most likely not true. I need to grow.

Emotional: Drained
Physical: See above
wish: I would grow
Thankful: Soccer
Music Area: Choral Music
Movie: Citizen Ruth
Dusgusting: closed minded people

HEY! I am really excited. We are having a World Cup party tonight. You know, soccer? Haha. Yeah, I'm not the biggest soccer fan either, but I am going to have a blast! It's going to be fun times! We are just going to watch the game, and have some fun. Did I mention it was at 2:15 in the morining? That's what makes it even better. So we went out with my dad for Ice cream tonight, and I can't say it was the best time. So I asked him if I could be back by ten, because my show comes on (I knew if we weren't back by 10, I could watch it again at 1, so it wasn't that bad). Yeah, so anyways, I wasn't hungry so I didn't get anything. Well that, and the fact that I promised myself that I wouldn't allow myself to make him spend money, until he gets other things straight. By other things, I mean my sister's tuition, and various other things. I am already getting everything to pay for college myself if I have to. I don't want him messing up my credibility, like I said sometime last week. So he got FURIOUS. I mean he was soo mad. When my dad get's mad, he takes everything out of proportion. It's not even funny. I was trying to at least have a halfway good time, but he had to ruin it. That is not Kosher. Not at all. But then I think about the fun times we will have tonight, so I am happy again. My brother, sister's and Maya are watching But I'm a Cheerleader. That movie cracks me up. It's ghetto though. Fun times. hmm.. what else? I don't remember anymore about my dream, but I am still scared of that mug. one sec, I gotta take My dog.. I mean Maya out. You know what I just found out? It's kinda funny. My brother and sister read my internet conversations. That cracks me up. Haha I am laughing at that. Well it's like 12:08, and I don't have anything else to say, so I'll talk later!

Emotional: Excited
Physical: Restless
wish: ???
Thankful: youth group
song/artist/type of music: emo and punk (Dashboard, Ben Folds, Saves the Day, Jimmy Eat World)
Movie: But I'm a cheerleader
Disgusting: vomit

YO what's up. Nothing much here. I'm at work again. It turns out that I am now the permanant concierge. Awesome times for me! Hmmm.. Yeah, I'm kinda bored. Oh guess what? I get to actually go to youth group tonight! well, it's not that exciting, because they are playing water games, and I hate getting wet (except for showering). I got paid yesterday, and I can't say my paycheck was bad at all. Shoot that mess was good. I went to Cristina's house after work, and didn't go to Carole's, but I had a semi-amount of fun at Cristina's. Wow! It's almost 5 o'clock! That is awesome! I get off at 6:30. OH MY GOSH! My dream last night was HORRIFYING!!! I mean I wokr up almost crying! Okay, let's see how much of it I remember. It may not sound that bad to you, but it terrified me.
... The Dream from Hades...
I wake up, and go to school. It's the last day of school, and everyone is excited. The last day of a thirteen year slavery in public school. Graduation takes place after school ends, and all the exams are graded. (the grades you accumulated during the year didn't count, only your exam.). A group of My senior friends and I are waiting by the bulliten board, where the grades are posted. The only class I am worried about is math. If I didn't make an 86 on the exam, I would have to go to summer school (in this school, anything below a 'C' was failing), and by going to summer school , would totally jeopardize my chances of getting into the greatest school in the country (I don't know what the school was). My math teacher (Mrs Buffington) stood there, teasing us.. she wouldn't post the grades. Then she posted them one by one, in alphabetical order (my name started with a Z) and she had 586 students. I was almost crying, because I had to wait and wait for my name to be posted. After 6 hours she ended up on my name, and wouldn't post the score until I went on a ride with her. I was totally aginst the whole idea of being in a confined space with Mrs. Buffington for any period of time, but I had no choice. Reluctantly, I said okay, and we waled to her car. Her car had to have been the worst car I had ever seen in my life. It was a vomit green and brown 1982 station wagon. The passenger side window had plastic wrap over it, because the real window had been shot out. Her gas dial didn't work, so she never knew when she was really on 'E' because it always said 'E'. We pulled out of the school's parking lot, and I could see my friends hugging because they had passed all of their finals. Mrs Buffington began to talk to me about my future, and how I would never succed if I kept slcaking off. She said Math was the root of all goodness, and I would not get anywhere if I didn't major in math at college. She said she knew my dreams of being a film director, and she said I will never make it, because I was the biggest slacker she had ever known. She told me I was going to Hell, because I was not Mormon, (which confused me, because Mormon's don't believe in "hell") I was perplexed. She then took me to a city called Concord, (but it wasn't concord, North Carolina) where all the people are extremely tall. That's when she told me she was kidnapping me, and I would never see my family again. She was going to teach me herself not to slack off, and to be successful....

That's all I remember, and if you were me, you would be scared too. I know some more stuff went on, but I can't remember it. Hopefully I will have some better dreams to tell you about. Well, I am about to leave in an hour. Fun times.

Emotional State: Joyful, I'm bummed that I slept through church today. I usually never do that. That's really weird. Mabye that's why I had that dream. Shoot, I am never sleeping through church. I didn't sleep IN church, I slept THROUGH it, like I didn't even go. That's not good. I don't like missing church.
Physical Cond: Good, I feel fat. Mabye I should stop eating this popcorn.
Look forward to: Youth group (even though they are playing water games)
Wish: I was a little bit taller, I wish I was a baller... (I crack myself up)
Thankful: Being Alive
Song: Swing Low, Sweet Chariot (that song has been in my head all day)
Movie: Death to Smoochy (what a funny movie!)
Disgusting: This popcorn. I am really going to stop eating it.

See ya! Sigining off,

Hey! I am at work now. I don't really think I"m supposed to be writing in my blog at work, but as long as I don't get caught I hope it will be fine. What if someone is in the back office reading everything I am typing? Well, that would suck, but I would kinda deserve it. I love my work. Today I am the concierge. That's the person who signs everyone up for memberships, and makes reservations, and gets the express tickets. Sounds cool, huh? Yeah it's awesome. I do love my work, so it's all good, right? We have this new guy who works here, (well he's not extremely new, but it's the first time I've worked with him.) He's cool though. His name is Matt. Speaking of work, this man comes in to buy a membership today, and he is asking all these crazy questions. LIke I know the answers to those questions?!?! Come on now! I wanted to tell him to shut the heck up and buy the dang membership. Luckly I didn't say that, or I would surely get fired. Yeah, he was testing my patience. Fun times for work huh? I am supposed to be going to Cristina's house today after work. I don't know if I will, because one of my managers, Carol is having a housewarming type-party at her house. Hmm I am facing a tough decision. Guess what? One of my co-worker's, Jesse (she is the daughter of my high school Latin teacher) just asked to have a co-dance party with her, b/c her b-day is in July too. Tell me that would not be hot. I am just thinking of the possibilities. She is still not sure about it, but when she gets more info, then I think I might have to capitalize on that. Talk about some hotness. What else? Hmm... Did I tell you I saw the Importance of Being Earnest? We I did, and it was great. I loved it. I am eating some Banana bread, and it is awesome (we get all the leftover pastries from the past order. They are still fresh, and non stale, so it's all good.) I wish someone would just walk through the door right now, and ask me a question, so I wouldn't be so bored. It's not that I'm bored, I just don't have anything to do. Sometimes I feel weird working here, because I am the only person under like 20 working here. That's what makes it awesome, yes, but it's still weird. I get to associate with people my own mental-level (haha i crack myself up) Well I think I am going to go now, Watch me get on like twenty more times, and write some more stuff.

Emotional State: Bored.. Talking to Lucy, one of my co-workers.
Physical State: I want to just jump out of my chair, and yell what's up people? (well not really)
What I look forward to: Getting off work (although I love it)
Wish: ???
Thankful: My paycheck
Songs: The song's Nathan is playing over the loudspeaker/intercom thingy
Movie: Earnest
Disgusting: having a real sex change. Just think about it. Getting a penis that doesn't work. Hmmmm....

Signing off,

Hey I had a great day today! It was also sad. Today was the last day of VBS. Man, I had so much fun with those kids. Today was water day, so we all got wet. Then, after VBS, we went to map out the Raleigh bus route for the Montegnard Refugees. I had a blast. We were just chillin in Laura's van, talking, and getting to know one another. It was just a fun time. Laura cracks me up about some baseball. She loves that sport so much! You know what else she loves? The Scarlet Pimpernel! I HATE that movie! I can't even begin to explain. Laura has problems, but she is really cool. Man it's kinda weird to see her as my youth intern, because I have known her since I was in the eighth grade. Robbie, I just met this summer, and so far, he's on a great track to being the best intern we've had. Jared (the first time) will be extremely hard to top, because Jared is my bizzoy. Robbie is doing an awesome job though. he is obsessed with him some soccer. I mean soccer is a cool sport, and you have to give soccer players some props, because they do have the most indurance. It's really interesting to see Robbie talk about siccer, because he just lights up when he's talking about soccer. Kinda like me and movies. That was basically my day. Just a buncha having some fun! Oh yeah! I almost forgot! I saw THE IMPORTANCE OF BEING EARNEST!!!!!!! it's awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my gosh I almost died laughing! It followed the play so accuratley! I am going to see it again. It was greatly casted too.

Emotional: ralaxed
Physical: Tired
What I look forward to: Work tomorrow
What I wish for: Cinnamon Toadt Crunch cereal (that is the STUFF)
Thankful: being alive
Song: That's what Friends are for (Stevie Wonder)
Movie: FIGHT CLUB (I love that movie) Robbie.. if you ever read this, Tyler Durden your rat!
Disgusting: Glue boogers

I am about to eat some honeycombs cereal! I really want CTC though. O get to go to work tomorrow! Fun times! yaaat my brithday is coming! Fun times! Signing off,

Yeah, so I just got home from Bible study, and it was awesome! Wow, I am going to go every week. I don’t even know where to start. The whole youth group didn’t show up, and that’s good (that sounds bad to say, but I think it’s a good thing). I was really reluctant to go.. why? I don’t know I am the person who is always up for new things, but not youth group for some reason. I can’t say I’ve been the biggest fan of youth group, like I haven’t put my whole heart into it like I used to. What is up with that? I know this summer is my last, but I am going to make it a good one. I have decided (I just decided tonight). The guys that were at Bible study: Kevin Harvey, Daniel Hodge, Tommy Talice (he’s on a different level than the rest of us) and myself. The leaders were Jeff (our youth leader) and Robbie (the youth intern). Jeff didn’t say much, and that’s good too, because he let us do our thing. I really like it, and I think God is going to do a lot through us. I think we could have a couple more guys, but anymore would be too many. We talked about Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob today, and the big plans God had for them. I think it was relevant, because we never know what God has in store for us. A really big question popped up, and I think it’s a question I need to ask myself more. “Don’t ask what God wants me to do, but ask what kind of person does God want me to be.” I think that’s really awesome, because I am always asking “what’s supposed to come out of this for me, or what is this supposed to achieve? Those are for God to know, and us to find out. We just need to be focused on obeying God continuously, and having frequent interaction with him. Another big point was brought up to me also. You know how we ask God for things, and we always just wait around for them? We shouldn’t do that, we should always pray about it, not just make it a one time thing, ya know? Every time it pops up in our head, we should pray about it, and seek His guidance, because if it is being brought up in our thoughts, then obviously, it’s a big issue. Here’s an example. Ok so at the beginning of the school year, you know being a senior was a bundle of bricks being thrown in your face. The huge problem every senior faces is college. Yes, us church goers say, yeah, we have prayed about it, and we are just waiting for God to tell us what to do. It doesn’t work like that. That’s what I learned. We should have been praying 24/7, and it would have been so less stressful. Bringing problems to God makes everything easier. I didn’t know where I was going for sure until very late in the year. I thought I was going to American University, but those plans were shot down in one letter. It was weird. I had already been making plans to go there, etc, and I thought that’s where God wanted me. I am still not totally sure God wants me in film school, but things are going fairly smoothly. Yeah, so that’s that. God really does work in some awesome ways. That was Bible study. I will be going more. Well, tomorrow is the last day of VBS. Talk about some sad times. This week was so awesome with the fourth graders. I am so excited about tomorrow for many different reasons. One: VBS! Two: we are going on a ‘bus tour’ well not really a bus tour, but we are mapping out the whole Raleigh bus route for some refugees who are staying here for a few weeks. They are from Vietnam. The whole time I heard they were coming, I wanted to do something for them, but I didn’t know what I could do. I could have taken initiative, and asked somebody, but I didn’t. I don’t really know why either. I just didn’t. Three: We got new movies! Fun times! Four: VBS (did I already say that?) Five: I don’t know, but fun times anyways. The hockey game is on. I am not the biggest hockey fan, but it’s fun to go to the games. I don’t watch many sports on TV, but I do love me some college basketball. Yes yes yes. I might wake up in the morning and go to Jeff’s house to watch World Cup soccer, but I really don’t think I will wake up that early. Not saying 7:30 is early, but going from watching the game to VBS might take some energy. Yeah, so, my sister didn’t have her girls’ night out tonight, b/c I really don’t know why, but she didn’t have it. Fun times. I don’t know why I get so worked over things like I did earlier today, but I just do. As my dad puts it, “I get worked up over the things that mean nothing, and I need to re evaluate my priorities.” I don’t believe that, because I think I get worried over the things that are important to me. Just because they aren’t important to him, doesn’t mean I can’t put them high on my list, right? Well yeah, so I am in a good mood, and don’t need to start on this track.


Artist for the rest of the day: John Mayer
Thing/person that REALLY angers me : WILL SMITH
Awesome Actor: EDWARD NORTON (he is my boy)
Best Friend in the Whole World : Maya

yeah so too bad I am not on good terms with my computer. yesterday, every time I tried to publish, it logged me off! I don't even remember all I had to say, but I do know it was awesome. VBS today was pretty fun, those kids were wilder than ever! Right now I am watching Harry Potter. That movie is awesome! John Williams did the music, and if you don't know who that is, you need to be shot in the head. He is the best composer of the 20th and 21st century. Ohh today we find out what movies we get for this weekend, and next week. I really hope we have 'The Importance of Being Earnest'. Colin Firth is such an awesome actor. Yeah so my sister is out with Maya and them, and I am here at home. This morning Sarah asked to do something tonight, and I was like yeah, of course! But when I get home from Bible Study, it turns out that Crystal and company has planned a girls night out. I mean I am glad they are spending time together, but sometimes I feel like they don't want to even hang out with me. Not to that extreme, but I think that things like 'A night with the girls' are kinda reatarted. I mean for real though, it's not like I don't already know most of their lives, but hey, they can do their thing. I have stopped asking if I can go, because my sister always says, 'no you'll be the only boy' like I care. She's like 'why don't you hang out with your guy friends?' Umm mabye because I don't know any guys like that. I mean for real. I am much more comfortable hangin with the girls, and there are things I just can't talk about with other guys. It's not the same. Well well well. Maybe I will go to Bible Study afterall. The youth interns are trying to start like a youth-wide Bible study. I think it's pointless, for about at least ten reasons. One: It's only half co-ed, meaning everyone meets at the same house, but the actual studies are done seperatley. What's the point? I tried to start a co-ed Bible study, but it got shot down. I know I am freaking mature enough to talk about things with the opposite sex. I think it's the leaders. I don't think they want us talking to girls. You should see the looks I get from leaders in youth meetings. Two: The whole youth group is going to be there. What's the point of a small group Bible Study if the group is not small at all? No offense to the underclassmen, but I really don't think I am on the same mental, spiritual, or emotional level as Freshmen and Sophomores. Three: 97% of my friends don't go to my church (they go to others) or they are out of school (high school). Four: I want to go watch the new movies at the theater tonight. Five: well I think those four will suffice for today. I am going to give it a shot, but if I don't like it, then shoot. Well, enough about that.

Emotional State: BORED
Physical Cond.: I HAVE TOO MUCH EBERGY AND I WANT TO GO DO SOMETHING
What I look forward to: getting paid soon
What I wish for: The Stanley Kubrick collection (I want that soo bad)
Thing to be thankful for: Oliver Wood (you have to watch/read Harry Potter)
Song of the Day: The VBS song "freind like you" and Pina Coladas) of course
Movie of the Day: The Big Kahuna (I love Kevin Spacey)
Thing that disgusts me: Jello (but I'll eat it if my brother makes it)

I love Lemonade! Yes please! more more more

My Birthday is July 12!!!!!!!!!!!! One month from yesterday!

I'll update you on how Bible study goes! signing off,

My best friend is over and she is tearin up some Chicken Biscut combp from Bo's. I don't eat those, b/c I don't eat meat. I am about to go to work in a few hours, after I eat some Ramens. At about 3 I woke up from my nap, and it was CRAZY! (my dream that is) Okay, so we were at this theme park with all these hot umm.. folks (haha) and we (Crystal, Sarah, Maya and I) got to preview this ride. It's a roller coaster that you drive your car on. I can't really explain it, but yeah, it was realy tizzy. Well my car was behind theirs, and I turned the wrong way at some point on the track. It turned out that that part of the track hadn't been built yet, so I fell from 5000 feet to the ground. Here's the good part, you know where you are half-councious in your dreams? Well I kept telling myself not to wake up, and to keep falling until I hit the ground, or I would never know what happened, (and the dream was really good, so I didn't want to mess it up). So I fell, and I landed on the ground perfectly. on my feet, and everything, right in the middle of a dance club, located at the center of the Theme park. So everyone rushes up to me, because they thought I was dead. Then I went dancing, and it was all good. Then it was time to go, but a group of terroists had held up the theme park, and no one could escape. One of the hostages was this person I vaguely know, Matt Carter. So me, of course, being the superhero-take initiative person, devised a plan to free Matt. My plan worked, but many people were killed in the action. Then some stuff happened (I'll keep that to myself for now) and the phone rang. It was Maya, telling me she ws on her way to my house. I realized I was no longer dreaming, and decided to wake up. I LOVE DREAMS! More to come! Signing off!

Oh my freaking gosh! I hate AIM! it just took me to a new page, and I totally just lost my last Blog! It was soo good! I don't even remember what it was! well I'll start over again! I just got home from VBS. Fun times! I love my fourth graders. The theme of today was choose Friends wisely, with the reference to 1 Samuel. Talking about David, and Jonathan, two best friends. It was great. I saw Robbie Sweet today, how exciting (haha Maya inside joke). He's our youth intern. This summer will be awesome, hopefiully. Well I am hungrified, so I am about to go grab some F-Double-O-Deezy

Today is Jenny's Birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNY!

me ay 1:00 PM June 11, 2002

Emotional State: Elated, Happy, just in a good mood
Physical State: Hungry and Tired
What I look forward to: Working tonight! I love my job
What I wish for: too many things/people
Thing to be thankful for: little kids (I want a kid!)
Song of the day: Pina Coladas! (that is ALWAYS the song of the day)
What I hate to be called: a kid, and crazy
Movie of the Day: Black Hawk Down and Monster's Ball (They both come out today)
A thing that Disgusts me: Magazine porn. That's nasty. I mean for real come on now, get a life. I can't say how gross that is.

Yaaay for ME! I love myself

31 days till my brithday! Fun times!

I love my friends. I just needed to say that. What would this world be without friends? Oh my gosh. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have any friends. That terrifies me just thinking about that. It's scary. Take a moment and picture your best friend. It can be your sibling, boyfriend, whatever. Think of all of the things you have gone through. Both good and bad. Even the bad things bring a smile to your face don't they? Man. I don't know what I would do without my best friend, Maya. She knows she is my girl forever and ever. We have so many inside jokes it's not even funny. I know that I can talk to her about any and everything. She knows more about me than alot of people. She's awesome. There are some things I can't tell her, but I can tell other people. Is that bad? I mean she is my best friend, so shouldn't I be able to tell her everything? It's not really telling her everything, it's like hmm.. let me think. Hannah. She's my best friend from school, and we can talk about things like books, movies, (not just surface talk, but really disect them) drama, and other things. Maya and I have really deep conversations, but not necessiarily about books, or things like that. Is that bad? I don't really know what I am talking about, and this probally doesn't make any sense, but I am trying to figure this out. Hmmmm.. now I am going to feel bad, b/c what if someone gets the wrong impression from reading this? well I need to say it, and so here it is. yaay for me. Another thing. I feel like I am growing away from my sister. This REALLY scares me, because she, above anyone else is the person who was by my side, since I was born. I mean we do everything together. Well used to, that is, since she has gone to college, she has changed. Changing is awesome, and I encourage everyone to do so, but that's not the point. I feel like she has changed so much, she puts her new friends, and her well being above her family. It's like this. For Kaleo (her boyfriend) she will do anything. Their relationship, from the way I look at it, it for the most part, healthy. It's good that she likes him and all, but it seems like they are married, and their relationship is going too far, too fast. At every moment of the day, it seems, they have to know where the other is. It's almost like they don't trust each other. She always complains that she is not with him, and that makes me feel bad, because I feel like I am not wanted. Whenever we talk, or go somewhere, the conversation is always about Kaleo. I rarely get to say anything, and when I do, the conversation always shifts back to her. Last weekend, I get home from work, and I ask 'where's Crystal?' my brother and sister respond with 'she went back to Greenville (where her college, ECU, is located)' It was all new to me. She was gone for four days, without calling, or anything. I understand that she is 19, and legally an adult, but come on now, you just don't up and leave, without telling anyone. My mom got wind of it about ten minutes before she left. What kind of notice is that? mabye I am taking things too far. Many times I have asked myself if it's me with the problem, but I don't think it is. All of these issues sound really petty, but they aren't. At least to me they aren't. I don't know what to do. I have tried to talk to her, but the conversation is one-way. I don't feel she's listening to me. I can never get online, because she is always waiting for him to call, and that's frustrating, because I have things I would like to do also. The relationships with her friends (from Cary) are also becoming fringed, I think. I have talked to some of our friends (we have the same friends basically), and they can see the change. It's like she's just wishing to return to greenville, and she can't wait for school to start, and she's not enjoying her summer. Well I'll stop now, beause I have to get up in the morning and teach 4th graders VBS. VBS is awesome, I love it. Fun times! Well, this is Christopher, singning off. Goodnight.

Hey. This is totally new to me. I have never had a place to let out everything, like a journal, etc. Fun times for me. So, what's on my mind now? My brother and sister's are watching "Who's Line is it Anyways" That show cracks me up. I love Improv. Hopefully this summer, if the guy calls me back, I'll be doing some improv work with a tour group. I really hope he calls me back. He's a producer from HBO, and while I was working he said that I had something that he could possibly work with (yaay me). I think this opportunity could be an awesome starting place for my career. Yeah, so in January I will be off to film school (I am extremely excited) but I have no idea how I will pay for it. I am trying to save money, and my mom will do all she can but she can't do it all. I don't want my dad to help me, because he's a huge lier, and I don't need that. I don't need him messing up my credibility, like he did my sister's at school. He was supposed to pay for her year of school there, and he was telling us that it was all paid for, two weeks befire school ended she got the bill for the year's tuition. She shouldn't have gotten a bill if he paid for it, and it turns out he never talked to the school's financial aid officer (with whom he said he had numerous meetings). Well enough about that, I am in a semi-good mood, so I don't want to ruin my perkyness.

On another note, I love my job. I work at Madstone. It's an independent movie theater. It's awesome. I just saw a movie called Y' Tu Mama Tambien. WOW! I loved it. It's a coming of age story of two teenage boys. Yes it has sex in it, but that's the whole story. Well not really, but it's alot of it. I mean think about it. What teenage boy goes through 24 hours withoug thinking about, performing, talking, or fantising about sex? Come on now. If you are that teenage boy we need to have a talk, b/c everyone knows you are lying. I think there is one boy who could possibly qualify, and that's Jason Bray. He's Mormon. That's all I'll say about that. I could talk about religion and movies all day. Man, I have so much to say! I can't say it all now, because then I wouldn't have anything to say tomorrow. There are plenty of secrets that I have to share, and over time you will know every corner of "The Inner Chamber" come see me again!