What am I going to wear? Jason told me not to wear something really nice or it'd get messed up... that shot down what I was going to wear... hmmm..

Jo Jo Jo. Let's sum up since Wednesday. Thursday: Called my bank. I officially have no money. 'tis a sad, sad, thing. Ben wanted to go see "the Hours" and I told him Jason and I thought about going to see it. He was like "oh good! I'm going too! What time? I get to meet him!" I was like "umm... let me call him" so I did. We decided on the 7:00 show at Century theaters (which rocks socks). So, Ben wants to invite Dan (the boy of the moment.. just kidding.. his.. boy.. well I don't know about anymore, he's mad at Dan..) And Dan doesn't want to go. Ben is STILL getting ready at the time we're supposed to be long gone, so he says "let's go to the 7:40 one" I'm like okay. So, it's okay with Jason, and yeah.. We get on the train, and Ben decides he wants to go to Belmont (boystown) to eat. He's like get off here, and take the purple line to Davis. I was like woah. So he didn't go. Well, the movie was great anyways. All three women were awesome. Incredible. Streep, Moore, and Kidman get props in my book. Jason paid (he's such an awesome dude). I'm going to pay him back sometime. No, not in the freak-nasty way. So then he took me home, and yeah.. Maya called at 9. The movie ended at about 10. Wow. I tried to call her back, but I couldn't reach her. I got to Crystal who also left a voicemail. Wow. I was shocked when I heard the news. I won't say now, because I'm not sure of who reads this, and what I can and cannot say. All I can say, is I was floored. wow. I then called Maya and we talked for a while (my roomate was not yet home). wow. I didn't know what to do. I still don't. Anyways, my date is tonight. I'm excited. I feel bad, because Jason is paying for everything (no one ever does that for me). He says it's okay. I wonder if it really is or not. I don't want to be dependent on someone. It's not that bad, I know, but still. Okay let me shutup now.

Wow. I went out with Jason last night. It was very spur-of-the-moment. I had the best time ever. It was incredible. Fun times! I really can't wait until tomorrow night. he bought tickets for us to go somewhere tomorrow night, but he's not telling me where. Hmmm. He said it's realy awesome though. I have NO money until Monday. sad times for all. Anyways, I do have to go now. Time to take some Jeans back with Ben. See ya.

I HATE NOT HAVING A COMPUTER! I have like 15 minutes to write this! AHHH! I can't do it! Man! AHHHH! Well, it's excellent here. I have gone out every night. I can't keep up. I am not going out tomorrow or tonight for that matter. Shee shee. Wow. I have met too many people. They all rock my socks. I can't even keep up in my blog. What is this world coming to? OH yes. HOOKAH. I must write about some Hookah. It's like this bong-type thing, from The middle east. You put a really like light light light tobacco in it, and then they give you like a million flavors to choose from for the smoke. They chose Raspberry and Peach. Wow. I only took one puff, because I don't do the whole inhate thing, cigarettes, weed, anything. Me and drugs don't mix, because I said we don't. It was good. I mean it tasted like raspberry-peach snapple if you were to boil it, and puff the smoke. Can't taste tobacco, can't get high or addicted to it. It was fun times. Saw Confessions of a Dangerous mind. It rocks. wow. OH YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I HAVE A DATE FRIDAY! I have NEVER EVER been on a date! Well I guess it's a date. I mean I think it's a date. It's with a guy named Jason, who rocks. He's hilarious, and nice, and purty dern attractive. He doesn't think so though. But then again who does think they are attractive, besides me? Hah. I need a haircut. So I'm going to do that sometime before our date. Wow. I'm excited and scared. But you know me. I will be taking it slow. Times 5000. Fun times. okay time to end. Oh yes, Michael (mike) hasn't called me. I'm kinda wonderin why.. but it's o-tay.

I'm in one of the computer labs (this is the only one I know of so far), and I was on another computer, but it sucked. It crashed on me twice. It was worse than my computer at home. I don't respect all that. Amen. So now, I'm on a better computer. It rocks so far. AHHHHHH! I'm in Chicago! Talk about some fun times. Wow. Okay I don't want to leave out anything so I'll do it by paragraph starting from Wednesday morning.

Wednesday morning: Stayed up until about six. I thought I had everything packed, right? Turns out I didn't. Not at all. I totally forgot my SHOES! AHH! So I had to re-pack. It was quite fun and not fun at the same time. Then I wrote letters to everyone in my family about how much I would miss them and all that jazz. They were good. Yes. Then I went to sleep. On the floor of all places. I don't really know why, I just decided to sleep on the flizzor. It was comfy though. Got up the next morn. Showered. Changed. Got ready to go. Said goodbye to Cam and Christian. (I only have 30 minutes to finish this, so I better hurry.). Went to the airport. When I got all checked in, the lady was like, you know, there's a non-stop plane leaving at 9:35 for Chicago, instad of 10:15, and you won't have to wait 2 hours in Nashville TN. I was like that's kosh. So we got all switched, and got 3 bucks out of it. Fun times. It was then about 9:15, and my mom couldn't go to the gate with me (you know those new Sept. 11 regulations). So we said our goodbyes, and she was crying herself up a storm. Almost made me bust out. Then I walked around, got me a bite to eat. Took my vitamins. Got on the plane. Great trip (except I left my gloves on the plane... NOT FUN TIMES AT ALL... HORRIBLE SAD TIMES.)

Wednesday Afternoon: I thought I had Ben's number with me, but guess what? I didn't. Haha. I had to laugh at myself. I wasn't supposed to arrive until 2, but it was 11:40. I decided I would take the train (although I had NO idea where I was going) I just felt like an adventure. An Adventure did I have. Wow. So I was on the train, and I transfered to another train, and got off at the wrong stop. I didn't know it was the wrong stop. This really really nice Russian Lady came up to me, and we were looking at the map together, trying to find out where I was supposed to go. Since I knew my address, we decided that I should take Federal Street until I got there. Well boy. I think my hands fell off in the course of my treck to my house, and I grew them back or something. They were red. I didn't even know my hands could turn red. They sure were though. So I finally got there (luckily there was a girl getting ready to go into the building, and she had a key, so I didn't need mine, b/c I sure as H didn't have it), and My roomate wasn't there. AHH! I was praying he hadn't left to get me. I tried the door. It was unlocked. I was like 'well this is going to be my house too' so I let mylself in. a few minutes later, he showed up. Phew. We met, and talked. He's gay. Not hot though. well I don't think so. He sure does get a ton 'o' boys.

Wednesday Night: Went to Clarks, a resturant. It was good as H. I had a veggie burger, and some tomato soup stuff. Wow. I chomped it up. Met Rachel, who totally rocks. She's one of Ben (my roomate)'s best freinds. She's awesome. Then, we went to the dorms to chill there. wow. Met some crazy boys. 99% of them gay. Had to be. They all smoked, so their apt. smelled like boys and ass and smoke. It was not kosher. Then we went on home, to talk some more, and went to beddy bye.

Thrusday Morning: Orientation. talk about some fun times. Met tons 'o' people. (Only 5 mintues left, so I might have to finish laters). Chris Padgett. He's pretty nice, and really cute too. We hung out and registered alond with Diana. She's really cool, too. We're all freshmen. I think I have a class with both of them. At least one. My classes are as follows: History of Cinema, Asthetics of Cinema, Psycology, Preproduction 1, Math for the Marketing something. and Some science. It's like "Physics in Acoustics". It's awesome. I can't wait to start. Well I have to go now, so I'll finish laters. I have to tell how I got out of all the first year classes. It's great. Allright. Out for now.

Wow. Alot can happen in the course of 3 hours. I was with my daddy from the hours of 7:30-10, and some shee shee went down. I don't feel like going into it, because my ass needs to finish packing, since I have to be at the airport in freaking 9 hours. Oh my gosh. yes. you heard it. I'm flying. I made my own exec. decision. I really did want to go with my dad, but golly gee. the winter weather and the time we would leave would not be kosher. So now, everything has to be done on my own. Wow. Somehow, I will survive. Amen. Praise the Lord. Pray for me. Wow. Wow. I don't know what to say. I'm like freaking out, but I'm so calm. WHY? I shouldn't be calm. I should be screaming. I'm not. It's like I think I have everything under control. Yeah the fuck right. I wish I would. This is probablly m last post in NC. Wow.

Fun times for all day. Wow. It's amazing. I leave tomorrow. I can't even explain where my emotions are. I'm ready, only because things are slowly becoming complete. It's real now. I think it started Saturday. But now, I feel like I can leave, and be okay. Yesterday at work, I was getting a little worried, because I thought I wasn't going to see Maya for the last time. I thought she had already left, and I would have been crushed if I didn't get to see her. But she came into Wilsons, and we had our last laugh before I left. It def. wasn't our last laugh. Let me tell you that. There is much laughing to come! Yesterday marked my last day at Wilson's. It was good. I of course had fun. I went out with my dad, who now is taking me to Chicago. I have decided that's a good thing, because it'll help me get settled in. I'm glad for that. I went out with Emily. That was fun, because Emily and I ALWAYS have fun times. Wow. I'm saying see you later to everyone! I can't believe I leave tomorrow, but I'm ready. Well not packing-wise ready, but emotionally ready. Except my mom. I'm not ready to leave her. Tomorrow is going to be a day of days. Wow. She already got teary-eyed when I called her at work. Aww shee shee. Wow. That's like all I can say right now. I'll type in my goodbyes tomorrow. Wow.

You know what really put me in the 'goodbye' mood? This is so stupid, but still. I SAW MY FAVORITE EPISODE OF BLUE'S CLUES!!!!! FUN TIMES! It brought back a ton of memories, and now it's like "wow. I'm ready to move on". Then, I saw the STEVE GOES TO COLLEGE ONE! It was so weird. Like Nickeloden was playing these episodes for only me. Wow. Wow. Wow. Okay, I have to take a shower, because I'm going out with Hannah Banana.

Official shoe count: 18 pairs

Fun times for the Golden Globes. I love awards season. I predicted 20 out of 24 winners correctly. I rock. Had a fun times day. Woke up at 1:30. chilled. Went to MacAllister's with Maya, then to the mall. then to Blockbuster, then to Bo's. Then back home to catch the Golden Globes, which was fun for me, but I don't know how much fun it was for everyone else. I was going crazy. I won't list all the ones I got right (yes I did write them down), but I'll do that later. Then we watched "The Others". Oh my gosh. This is one reason I hate suspenseful movies. They aren't at all suspenseful. The End was pretty good, but I wasn't far off from figurung it out. Maya and Cameron were freked out of their panties. It was hilarious watching them jump and scream. Haha. I laugh at that. Now I'm typing this. Have to go shopping with dad tomorrow. Oh, speakig of dad, brother man dicides he wants to take me up, if he can get his patients re-arranged. I was like woah buddy, someone's already bought plane tickets. More on this tomorrow. For now, it's sleepy time down south.

AHHHHHH! Wow. It's becoming real now. I'm leaving. I won't talk about that though. Let's talk about the day (saturday). Lat day of work at Madstone. Very sad. I am going to miss everyone. In the morning, I'm going to write a goodbye to them all. But I can't now. They even threw me a party! Fun times for all! Then, Crystal and I went shopping. Got some stuff for the big move. It was good spending quality time with her. Then we went to Cristina's. FUN TIMES WERE HAD. OH my gosh. People there: Donnie, Bridgette, me Crystal, Maya, Cristina, Ryan, and Jodi. Chilled, played Mad Gab, and Scatergories. Had some of Mrs. Rodriguez's cooking. you know that woman throws down. Amen for that. I will miss that cooking. Man oh man. We then decided to go clubbing on a whim. I really wanted to go, because I haven't been in forever, and it was my last weekend here. I was supposed to call Hannah, but I totally forgot, and we were already halfway there, so it might be hard for her to meet/find us. And it was 11:45, so it was kinda late. I must say, when we met Donnie and Bridge in the parking lot, Bridge had her seat reclined so we couldn't see her. Donnie was sitting up. Then he pointed to his crotch. Oh my gosh. I busted out. It's funny, b/c Bridgette isn't like that, and we knew it wasn't happening, but still... wow. It was hilarious. Then, onto Oxygen. Downside: it cost $12 to get in! We had NO clue! $12!!!!!! OMG wtf! but that's kosher. Fun times were had. We broke it down like it was no tomorrow. It was great. They played hotness songs, and Maya and Crystal had a little unspokedn competition. Sheet. Guys were riding them. I was laughing the whole time. Of course I got none (well okay, I got some, but that comes later) because the people there didn't swing over this way, but you know.. when you have to freak it, you have to freak it. OH YES!!! There was this guy who was drunk off of his ASS!!! HAHAH it was the funniest thing! So we were dancing in our little circle, and this guy comes up, trying to dance with Crystal and/or Maya, but they rejected him. He looks at me and the fowing cinverstaion insued:

Him: "Where are ya'll From?
Me: "Cary"
Him: " AWW YEAH! I'm from Ft. Bragg too!"
Me: "Oh holler"
Him: Yeah, man, I am just trying to get me some fuckin' PUSSY before I go back"
Me: "Haha yeah, I know what you mean"

Hahhahaha! I had to laugh at myself. He was stumbling everywhere. I had to laugh at him too. That mess was FUNNY! So we were shaking our groove thangs, and the DJ decided to play techno. The rest of everyone wanted to take a break, so I was like allright, and I got some water for us. They played my songs "Heaven", and "Sandstorm" so I had to go dance by myself. While I was dancing (to Heaven, it was actually the second of the two) This guy comes up to me and starts talking to me! I was struck at first, thinking he wanted to see if I was 'with' Crystal or Maya, but he actually wanted to talk to me! AHH! Yes! I know! He told me I was a great dancer (amen to that, because I am), and so he started dancing with me, asked me where I was from, etc... said I was prolly the only guy singing along to Heaven, and so he had to come and talk to me. He loves that song. Then he said, so do you want to hang out sometime!? I was like OH MY GOSH! I guy is hitting on me! This is the first.. like ever! I was so surprised! AHH! He actually looked good! I can get hot guys! Yeah right. That's probablly one in a million. I told him I lived in Chicago, and he was like "How long are you here? I was like "until Wednesday" he said, "well we can hook up before then" I was like "naah, I'm really busy, and I can't." (I turned down a guy!!) Then, when the DJ started playing hip hop again, he was talking to this other girl whom he knew (and I danced with later on) about his boyfriend. He's a slut. That's okay though. I would be so mad if I were his boyfriend, who WAS AT THE CLUB! I wanted to go and tell the other guy, but I don't start drama like that. That's their own problem. I'll solve it, but I won't cause it.

Anyways, a girl, who was on the heavy side was dancing with all the guys. Even though I don't like girls, I still break it down with them. It's just dancing. People were staring. Little old me was riding what could have been an elephant. But the girl could dance, so I had to get mine. I danced with a few girls tonight. I'm a dancing slut. Haha. Okay, now I am eating some Ramens, and smelling like smoke. I'm going to bed now. Goodnight!

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Guess what?! This makes day number 6 that has been really really good! Today. No, gotta start with last night. So at 8, I went to Wilson's. We had to do inventory. The time FLEW by. First it was 8:30, then it was 10, then, I went to Harris Teeter, because everyone was eager for some food, and the mall was closed, and got us some snacks. They were good. Then it was 11:30, the home stretch. Next time I looked at the clock it read 12:10. 20 more minutes. Then 12:27. Then I got to go! I had to leave at 12:30, because I was the only person signed up to preview "The Pianist". Wow. I can't even say how good that movie was. Oh my stars. Roman Polansky gets so many uber props. Adrian Brody... wow. Not just his looks (well his nose is big, but that's a different story). The boy can act. The man I should say. That movie was incredible. It wasn't a holocause movie, but more a biopic, of the Polish Pianist Wladyslaw Szpilman. It's based on Szpilman's 'autobiography'. Wow. I can't even say how much it rocked. I was almost in tears about 500 times in that movie.

this is weird. I remember my dream from last night. Well I don't remember everything, but I do recall that it was the night before I was supposed to leave for Chicago, and I was at a movie with a "close" friend (wink wink). I don't remember the friend (okay maybe I do... mef), but we were coming out of the movie, and Beth Cheek was standing outside of the door, knocking. I dropped my stuff, and ran out the door. I was screaming: Beth! Oh my gosh! I was freaking out. It was great. I know I was smiling in my sleep. Carey was there too. I didn't say a word to her. I just know she was with Beth, and I talked to Beth for a long time. She wasn't supopsed to be home from Chile, but she sure was. She had to go back. Her birthday was July 24. That's weird, because her birthday is July 3rd. that's all I remember, but I remember liking it.

Now about today. I got up at 9:30, then went back to sleep, because I had nothing to do. My dad didn't wake me up so I could go to my mom's today, so I just stayed there. I got back up at 11, did the getting dressed thing, and went out. I had absoloutly nothing on my agenda. I decided this would be a Christopher day. Since I didn't have a car, I walked everywhere. It was so great. First, I went to First Union to cash my checks, and deposit a few dollars in that account. Then I went to Bank of America, to put money in that account. Then I had nothing to do, so I decided Barnes and Noble was a great option. I read some magazines, but I told myself I wouldn't spend alot of money (I only kept $56 dollars out). so, I bought David Sedaris' Barrell Fever. That made me happy. well, it made me happier, since I was already happy. Then I was feeling a little hongry, so I decided I needed to treat myself to a good meal. I strolled my happy tail down to Maccaroni Grill. OH MY FRIGGIN STARS. TALK ABOUT SOME GOOD EATIN'! SHEEEEEE.. I don't play. It was me, my food, and David Sedaris. Warning. Don't read Sedaris when you're eating. You're bound to spit out your food. I sure did. I spent more on my food, then on my book. That's kinda sad. My waiter was nice though, so he got a $4 tip. Now I was super happy. because if I were my usual self his nice tail would have 10 percent. That's right 1.70. Not that I'm stingy (okay I am a little) but my ass is POOR! Sheet. I was feeling good today.

I am now at Madstone, and Alanna, Erica and I just got finished talking about crossdressers. Alanna dated one. Erica did too, but she didn't know about it. I haven't. Alanna really liked it, she said he was hot as a guy and a girl. Alanna is awesome. I mean she's raw. I like that. She tells it like it is, much like me. That is my ace. Hmm. I don't know. They told me I would make a good crossdresser, and it was a compliment. I don't know how to take that one. I'll just leave that be. I have no intention of dressing up like a girl, ever, unless money was involved. I just don't see it being kosher with me. I mean hey, if that's what you do, then do your thing. I don't have a problem with it. I'd be your friend, and we would be cool hanging out together, as you a girl, or guy, but as for me... I do'nt know.. I better be drunk, getting paid, or it better be a bet. Newsflash! Nathan and Becky are official. wow. Whoda thunk. Becky has her dreamiest dreamboat of a guy. When's it my turn? Yeah, that threw me for a little loop, but yay. I'm glad. More power to them. Fun times for all.

It's my last weekend in North Carolina. Talk about sad times. I don't know if I am happy or sad. I guess a little bit of both. I plan on having fun times all weekend, and not regretting a thing. I love everyone.

Now, it's time for a little David Sedaris.

"Everybody loves me. I'm the most important person in the lives of almost everyone I know and a number of people I've never even met. I don't say this casually; I'm just pointing out my qualification."

That is so me. David and I go back. Way back. He learned from the master. Damn. That sounds exactly like something I would say to a 'T'.

I get up this morning. Go to get some clothes, and glance past my mom's room. Guess who's there? My brother. He's 'sick' today. We all know he's not really sick, but that's okay. I still have to take care of him. This means I can't go out with anyone this afternoon. Boo. But, on the other hand, I get to spend some time with my brother. I think we'll play Playstation or something. I mean I leave in 6 days, so this probably will be some of the last one on one time we get together. I'll make us some lunch, and we'll have a good afternoon! I have to do inventory tonight at Wilson's. I wonder how that'll go. hmmm. Then I have to watch "The Pianist" at Madstone. I'm super-excited about that one. Wow. Yaay fun times. Today isn't going to be a wasted day after all.

Yet ANOTHER good day!

I got up pretty early, and I shaved. I cut my upper lip. It was funny. I laughed at myself, but it hurt! I had a great time at work, although it was super slow, and I was uber hungry. It passed by pretty fast. I then waited for about 7 minutes for Justin. He came, and while we were walking out of the mall, guess who we saw?! None other than Catherine Garlinghouse! She was getting about a million holes in her ears. I couldn't talk long, or I was going to be late for our movie. Then went to see Adaptation. It was good to see Justin again, after about 4 or 5 months. He's still fun times, and nice, and everything. I'm glad I spent some time with him. The movie was pretty good. Now that I have had a chance to analyze the movie, I liked it. Alot. Fun times. I think one reason I liked it so much is it had "Happy Together" in it. you know that is like my favorite song. I then had Justin drop me off at Madstone, I didn't have to work after all, but I had to get my paycheck. Haven't cashed it though. I think we are going to hang out tomorrow afternoon too. I have alot of people to try to squeeze in, because I'm trying to see as many people as possible before I leave. Fun times for all. After that, I went to The Station to get my mom, and then we had Shrimp Scampy for dinner. It was quite good. Then watched Dawson's, which is good, as always. The Bachelorette is dumb, but there are some pretty cute folks on it. Ha. So now, I'm chilling, thinking about Next Wednesday. One week from this morning I leave for Chicago. Lots of stuff to be done by then. But it's all in good fun. Tomorrow will be a day of days. fun times for all!

Another good day. I got up early, and I got ready for work, listened to some awesome songs on the radio. All oldies. It made me happy. I then made some biscuits for breakfast. They were good. I then went to Wilson's. I always have fun there. I'm going to miss working there. Then I went to Madstone, and hung out. I know, I'm a loser, I hang out at my place of work. Paul wasn't there, which is why I hung out. I then saw the first hour of Personal Velocity. Wow. That movie is really great. Then I went to Garner. Had Fun times there. Hmmm.. what now. I'm at home about to chomp up some maccaroni. And Gilmore Girls comes on in an hour. Fun times. Then Smallville. Bye for now.

Yaay. Good day today. Got up around 9. For no reason either. Weird. I didn't sleep in. I sat in bed for about 30 minutes thinking about my dream. It was incredible. Wow. Too bad I can't remember it. I should have written it down, but I didn't. Makes me kind of mad, because it was beyond awesome. Man. It wasn't anything sexual or erotic, just a good picker-upper. I was smiling for a long time this morning. After sitting, thinking about my dream, I did some stretching. It felt great. Then I put in some clothes. I stripped down naked, and realized I was cold. I turned up the heat in the house. I then wrapped up in a towel. I checked my email, and talked to Emmanuel about Survivor. He really loves that show, so I told him I'd watch it. I then took a bath. It felt great. I jerked off too. I got out of the bath, wrapped in a different towel, and ate some cereal, while watching Dora, Blue's Clue's and Little Bill. Blue's Clues was great. It had Steve in this one (I missed the earlier one with Joe), and they were firgring out which story Blue wanted to act out. It was Goldilocks. I was cracking up. The 'Blue Scadoo' segment had a story where Steve had to play the king. He acted like Elvis. It was incredibly funny for some reason. Little Bill was neat too. They were doing forward rolls in school, and Little Bill couldn't do one. By the end, he did it perfectly. I decided to do some forward rolls too. They were quite the fun times. Mom called. She passed her state test, so now she's promoted to the next level of Paramedic. Exciting. Put in another load of laundry. After that, I turned off the T.V. and read. It was relaxing. I got another raging hard on, and jerked off again (wow that's unusual for me, twice in one day, I usually average about twice a month). I then watched "Reservior Dogs" I like that movie. Why I picked that one, I don't know. Tim Roth is the man. I really liked "The Legend of 1900", another Tim Roth movie. His worst, by far, is Planet of the Apes. I can't stand that movie. Well OH YES, I forgot to feed Trixie, but luckily, Christian did. Phew! I am now, just sitting here writing in my blog, and I have to go to work in 2 hours. Fun times.

Well it's only nine days until I leave, and I know I should be uber excited, but I am terrified. Well one, no one I know is coming with me to help me move in, get settled, anything. I mean this whole time I'm thinking, I'll be all right after my mom leaves, ya know, I'll be all settled in and everything. Well I don't have that option. My mom's not coming with me up there. I'll be on a plane with my bags, and no where to go from there. The first few days here are going to be hell. I don't know my way around. How am I going to get to the assesment/orientation? Who's my roomate? How am I going to pay for stuff? I know I have to pay for college myself, I have been preparing for that, but it's all becoming real. Wow. I don't know if I'm ready. I feel like a paraplegic who doesn't know how to swim, and I'm about to be thrown into the deep. I have never been without someone I know for more than a week, and all of my best friends are less than an afternoon's drive away. Let me scream now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRYSTAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love her. That is my sister. 9 days till I go to Chicago! I'm at madstone. three of us are here. Me, Becky Christy. Fun times. There's a new guy that "starts" tonight, Vaughn. I only have 2 days left. Soo excited. See ya.

Oh my word. I just got back from seeing 25th Hour. That is my new favorite movie right now. It's the best movie I have seen of 2003. ha. the year just started, I know, but wow. It was everything I expected, and more. I am not even a Spike Lee fan, but this movie made me love him for life. Man. He can make HORRIBLE movies for the rest of his life, but he'll still be on good terms in my book. This movie makes up for everything I haven't liked of his. Wow. Everything in that movie was amazing, save the girl in it. She was a little flat.. not her body, that was far from flat, but her acting. WOW. Edward Norton once again makes my day. He makes my week. My year. Him and Josh Groban. ANd everyone else. Madstone is cool now. I only have 2 more days of work there. Hmmm. weird thinking about it that way. Well, I do have to be going to bed. Actually I don't, I just don't really have anything to say. I am waiting online for someone to get on. Not nessicairily a specific person, but just someone. Well nighty.

I was just asked (how come he can't tell me do do anything, he has to ask it in a non-assertive way. That's why he get's walked on) to take off my hat. See, if I was working concierge, I'd be looking dapper. but naw, I have to wear this nasty-ass T-shirt. okay. no more complaining. Damn, I looked so good today. That does make me sad.

I am seriously thinking about making this my last weekend here at Madstone. I don't know why, but I am just tired of it all. Not the people, for the most part, but I am just pissed off. I mean I can't exactly put my hand on it, but there's something about something that erks me. I had a great day at Wilson's by the way. I looked sooo good. Damn. wow. I surprised myself. I don't want to work tonight, but I must. Hell, I'm not even doing my fucking rightful job, the one I've had since day 1, concierge. They tell me when I get here, that I am doing concessions. Oh hell no. I was under the impression that I was working concierge, until like 8 or something, then Christie and I switching. Nope. Well anyways, I don't plan on doing a damn thing. Maybe I really shouldn't write this, considering Erica (one if the manager's) reads this. I don't know who else does, but right now, I don't care. I'm entitled to be pissed off, right? why not? I mean this may not even be a big deal, but I am making it one. Oh yeah, and there's a meeting tomorrow morning! what the fuck! see USUALLY the meetings are posted on the corkboard where everyone sees it. This was written on the white board, not too conspicously. Oh hell. Someone should have told me. I remember things like meetings when people actually SAY something. Shit. I have to work at Wilson's! I don't respect. Man. It's amazing how such a grrreat day can be ruined. I even had a kick ass dream last night. I'll tell about that when I get home, and am in a better mood. Time better fly by tonight. That's all I have to say. The end. Shit.

I must say that I was just totally embarrassed by a certain lady today. Laet week, she came in, and we had a marvelous conversation. She told me her name and everything, and I wrote mine down for her. She game me the name of a guy I must talk to when I get to Chicago, and one for a summer job next year. She remembered my name and everything, and I couldn't think of her name for the life of me. Golly gee. She really got on me for it too. She just changed my life. I am now going to remember people's names. It's sad. alwaus always will I reamember names. It's an important lesson. You never know when you are going to need help, or a job, or anything. She really hit home. Her name is Ash? (I can't even remember it after that long old conversation. Damn I suck.)

I feel great today. No particular reason. I just feel great. I'm at Madstone, and Louis Armstrong is playing. The man is doin' his thang. That is my boy. I had a great night last night, I went to bed at like 4AM, but it seemed like I got a TON of sleep (although I got up at 5:30 to go to my dad's, and again at 10)! It was great and restful. I took a shower today. Wow it was amazing. I don't know why this shower was any better than other showers, but I am just feeling great! I need to take my vitamins for today (I spent too long in the shower, so I didn't get to take them at home). Res. Life still hasn't gotten in touch with me, but that's not putting me down. I think it's hit me that I leave in 12 or 13 days. I need to start packing, and making a list of everything I need (i.e. underwear, etc). No one has showed up today to see a movie yet. I need to go make popcorn. Maybe it'll be this quiet all day. I wouldn't complain.

Today was long and short. I made dinner. I have to admit it was good. The Bachlorette is on. Christian is all about that. Wow. Plenty o' hotness on this show, and I'm not talking about Trista. I was upset last night about many a things, but they are all trivial. I need to leave. Get out of here. I want to go to college, and stop talking to random people online. REAL WORLD ROAD RULES BATTLE OF THE SEXES ROCKS MY COCK. EDWARD NORTON IS GOING TO BE ON BRAVO SUNDAY NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a beyond obsesion with him. Not in that way, but I have so much respect for him. If I wasn't a Christian, I would almost worship him. Okay that's going too far. I wish he were my dad sometimes. Haha. Let me stop. I just want to meet him once. I would prolly go stupid. TV shows are cheesy. Except Dawson's, which didn't come on tonight. I got a nap. so I'm hyper. I need to see movies. I have problems. I don't know what to write, I am just writing in this blog so I can say I try not to miss a day. Too much stuff is going on to write about, yet I don't feel it's important, and I don't feel like breaking it down. Time for me to go.

SSOOOOO Tired, and I don't even know why. Got up. Ate Lucky Charms (that is my CEREAL) took vitamins. Dad came, went cellular looking, priced. Went to work. Spent too much dern money. Had fun. Came home. Got stressed over housing (wait, still am). Watched/napped through Abrams Report. got bored. Stressed more over housing. Now online. Stressing, and talking. Tired. Want to sleep. Let's talk about happy times! I spent money today! I know, I'm not supposed to, but it makes me a happy boy when I do! Well guess what I got! Nope. Wrong. I want to The Body Shop (my new fav. store) and bought some African Spa stuff (I know, it's AFRICAN! I must be getting in touch with my roots. HAHAHAHHA! yeah right. Please. I almost wish I would). I bought a salt scrub, shower stuff, body balm, and a scrubber thingy. They are awesome. I love that sto'. Then I bought a coat. It is awesome dawsome and only $35 (well that's with my Wilson's Discount). It rocks my socks to the point they no longer rock. That made no sense, but that is quite allright. It's 10:40 now, and most likely I'll be online for a while. Okay. Done with this post. I need money. Know where I can get some? Course you don't. Blogs don't talk.

HAPPY 20th Birthday Maya! I love you forever girl!

Today. Lots of stuff happened. I feel good. Tired, but good. Yaay for me. Let's see. First off, a thank you goes out to Veronica, my store manager at wilson's, b/c she let me have the day off. She gets chocolate tomorrow. I went computer shopping with my dad. It was pretty fun, we got to talk. We were out from about 10 until 2:30. It took a long time. First we went to Gateway, and Justin was our sales rep. I must say he was not bad looking, but he's going back to whatever school on Thursday. Fun times for him. Then we went to Comp USA, and looked at Mac's. We didn't go all the way out to Durham to the Apple store, we just went out to some Glenwood Ave. (basically the same distance). they boy didn't really know his stuff. I knew more about the dern computer than him, and that's pretty sad. After that, we went to Triangle Town to the Dell Store. The guy there was really helpful, and he helped us find a pretty decent computer. We haven't decided on one yet.

I was then taken home (this is where the stress, but exciting stress) starts. When I get home, I want to use the other phone line (the long distance one) but it didn't work, I picked up the phone and nothing, not even the little 'you can't make a call from this phone' (the one that means you didn't pay the bill). so I call my mom, and she's like well, you can wait until I get home, and use my phone. The offices to the school would be closed by then (by the way, this is the only day I have to call, because of work). So she calls Renee, and I got the calling card number (I forgot it), and began my calling. First, was to Admissions. All the counselors were busy, so I left messages on all of their machines (hey, I don't play). Then to Fin. Aid. Got the forms I need to send in, getting the rest tomorrow. Then to Housing. Oh.. Housing. I left messages on all of their machines too, and wrote them all emails. Still no return of any sort. Sad times. I have no place to lay my head right now. This is sad. Then, The Assesment office called, I set up my times for that. I called the Freshman Center, but their answering service sucks, and it cut me off after 3 seconds. Even I can't talk that fast. Maybe the box was full. I wonder.. (who wrote the book of love...) Then, I think that ended my calls. Boston Public was grrrrrrreat! Then on to Maya's!

Maya's house was a ball of fun times, as it always is when we hang out. We had Ice Cream Cake, and sparkling cider to celebrate her b-day. We watched Road Rules/Real World Challenge-battle of the sexes... This show is going to ROCK. I can't even name the number of hotness people that are on that show. Someday it'll be me. We reminissed, took pictures, DID THE GRIND (WE HAVEN'T DONE THAT IN A B-A LONG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLLER FOR THE GRIND!), and just had a blasteroo. I am going to miss my girls. Everyone goes back this week. Ultra sadness.

My throat is scratchy. I am going to bed now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAYA! This blog entry is dedicated to Maya Kimberly Budihardjo. Enough said.

AHHHH! Okay today is going to be either a really good one, or bad one. I can’t decide. Hmmm. Well it started with me not going to church (slept right though it (it maybe because I straight up slept right through it. Woke up at 11. Called Maya. She was still sleep. She called back we had a fun times chat. She’s hopefully coming over for luncheroo. Here’s where I say the bad day will set in. First of all, my family decides to begin comparing me with my dad. They know that fucking aggravates me. They were like this is how you’re daddy. One reason they gave me was the whole Christmas holiday. I wasn’t my usual perkiness self, but that was NOT my fault. I told them that if they knew the real reasons, they would be mad. I chose not to tell them why. They got even more mad at that, b/c they said that was like my dad. Shit. If they want to know.. When someone asks for only three things and before Christmas he is told he’s not getting any of those, but still has to get his siblings whatever they want.. that’s a little depressing. Shit.. that’s more than depressing. I mean I am glad they got what they wanted, and it is more about giving, but still. What else did they say… They said that I work too much. Well it’s not like anyone is going to help me pay for college, so who else? Money doesn’t grow on trees. Now that just pissed me off. Oh yes, this REALLY REALLY REALLY makes me MORE than upset. So I asked for a cell phone for Christmas.. blah blah, and I was told I wasn’t going to get it right (it was too expensive). Guess who just got a NEW $250 cellular? None other than my MOM. Shit even the one I wanted was not that expensive. If that doesn’t piss me off, I don’t know what does. I called in sick to work. It is true. I am not well. This makes me a little angry too. Crystal spent more on her boyfriend, and didn’t have enough money for her own family. I think that makes me upset. No I know that makes me upset. Why am I talking about Christmas? This was over a week ago. Almost 2 weeks. I need to stop. That’s what I am going to do. Let them think what they want. I don’t care anymore. I’ll be gone in 16 days. That makes me sad too. I shouldn’t be mad at my family now. I am leaving in a few weeks. Well 2 weeks plus two days. Okay no more sad times. I am going shopping with Maya. That will be exciting. I have no clue what I am getting her for her birthday. I need to stop spending money though. Hah. Yeah right. It’s Jan. 5. This blog is dedicated to Lucky Charms. The bestest cereal in the world. Okay well it’s in my top 5.

It's 3:16 in the morning. I had a kickass dream last night, but I can't remember it. Something about the old gang. That's why I need a dream journal. Long day today. Don't want to go into detail. I love THE BODY SHOP. I want everything in that store, except for the makeup, b/c that's nasty, I don't wear that. But I got some Hemp stuff, and I want everything. I can't live without stuff from THE BODY SHOP. I need everything. I also need a computer, but that's not happening. I am actually going to be computer less in Chicago. I haven't thought about that until now. How will I live? My LIFE is the internet, and IM, and MY BLOG!!!!! AHH! okay. I am having a nervous breakdown. I am shaking. Oh yes, I don't feel too well. I think I am going to call Madstone, and ask for the day off. I got decaf coffee (no caffiene for me) today at Carubou with Maya. good stuff and fun times. Then we played Mario, the classicness. Fun times for all. I am now talking to Michael, who is awesome. This blog is Dedicated to Michael Farrell.

Sarah doesn't want to go to Legends. Therefore Maya won't go. So, we won't be going. sad. This does make me sad, because I was looking forward to it. Now I'll h ave to pay ten dollars to go to Treehouse if that's where people decide to go. (if I decide to go). I am sad now.

so yeah, I started my vitamins, right?! The little thingy that came with it said that I would pee bright yellow. yeah. Too bad it looks like I'm a friggin ALIEN. That mess glows in the dark, basically. I mean it's not like yellow, it's highlighter yellow. It's so weird. I bought a new (make that two) wallets today. They are fun times.

I have a shitload of stuff to de next week. I think I am going to take off a day next week, and handle my shit. I have a headache, and I haven't had one of those in like 3 months. I think it's becoming real that I am supposed to leave in 18 or 19 days, and I don't have a ounce of money, or shit packed or shit ready to go. I need to take off like 2 days next week. Shit. Damn. I need a day to myself with no one here, but the earliest that will be is like Wednesday, and I don't know if I can wait until then. Okay. Peace out

It's January 2nd. I started my vitamins today. I have to take four a day, and they are downright gross. At least i don't have to chew those mothers. I'm at Madstone. I was here yesterday, and I'll be here tomorrow, saturday, and sunday. Talk about some fun times. Yeah right. I had a fun times conversation last night with Mike F. It was quite invigorating, until we both got tired. Then I went to sleep. No really good dreams, just a bunch of flashes:

First: one of me in Chicago, at a film festival, watching my film. That was the hotness
Then: One of me getting stressed over money Next Wednesday. Why Wednesday? I don't know, but I do know it was next wednesday.
Third: Someone sleeping. Naked (it wasn't an erotic dream, it was just a naked sleeping person)
Fourth: walking down the street holding hands with my mate.
Fifth: I somehow got the computer I want
Sixth: The song "I got you babe" playing on my cell phone. (I don't have a cell phone, but that would be the song I would download for it)
Seventh: Living in Great Britain
Eighth: Trixie panting b/c she had to go to the bathroom

The last wasn't one of my flashes, but it's what woke me up. damn dog.

Happy Birthday Jake! Maya's Crystal's and Cristina's birthdays are all coming up! Fun times. Crystal went back today. sad times for her, and me too, b/c that is my girl.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! Wow.. I had a FUN TIMES new years. We had daquiris, and wine coolers, and rum, and champagne, and sparkling lemonade. Wow. me, Maya, Crystal, Cristina, Sarah, and Ryan. I couldn't have asked for better. I just had fun times. We played card games, and chilled, laughed, joked, and just hung out! Wowsers. We played some drinking games too. Talk about fun times. Now it's 4 in the AM, and golly, it feels like the night is just beginning! HOLLER! you know I have to go to work tomorrow! I don't care. I need some food, b/c I have the munchies. I just need to say Maya Kimberley Budihardjo is the tizziest person ever. besides me. But you know.

Oh yes. We listened to oldies tonight, after the new year, when we were playing cards. It was so incredible. Because oldies are like my favorite. Then on one song, I can't remember the song, it started raining really really hard. It was beautiful. Like we all began to make analogies. Like the rain is washing away the old year, and we get to start anew. The rain brings fresh and new things, like a clean slate. The fragrance after the rain is so crisp and new like a peice of paper, instead of old and wrinkled like the old year. Stuff like that. I am glad I spent the new year with the people I did. Awesome times.

Happy New Year.